sometimes

[gabbieface]

just

i don't know

as chaotic as that year was, i wish we could go back

we could do everything over. i couldve done everything differently with you. and im sure id be less confused now.

goddamnit, you don't know how much it kills me all the time that i didnt do anything that year.

ill never forget when you came to my house and we just sat outside for hours and stared up at the sky.

sometimes i wish i could spend every night with you

but sometimes i hate you. sometimes i wish you never came into my life.

times like these though...i'm hopelessly and senselessly infatuated with you.

and sometimes i wish you'd get the hint. sometimes i wish you'd do something about it. sometimes i just wish something would fucking HAPPEN and i wouldn't have to spend every single night thinking "someday, something, sometimes..."

this entry hardly expresses what i'm feeling right now, but I needed to make an effort

i still believe that everyone who's come into my life has come into it for a reason

i still haven't figured you out

i still haven't figured us out.