go to bed
do you ever get that feeling where you desire something negative to happen since you think it will bring something interesting to the picture? I know I'm not the only one. I don't know why I feel it so much, but I always do when things don't seem...balanced. Nothing's really quite balanced right now. Nothing's really that bad either...which is why there's no balance. It just seems like there needs to be trouble and controversy for life to be appealing.
Maybe I don't desire balance and I'm just seeking attention, or trying to see deeper into myself, or trying to get deeper into you, or him, or her, or someone. Just...I don't know. Why do we have that desire for trouble? Is it so we can arise heroic and come out of the rubble soaring? Or do we just desire that sense of uncertainty, of not knowing, of mystery, of action that lies behind the corner?
define "action"
I'm confusing myself. I need to go to bed.
Maybe I don't desire balance and I'm just seeking attention, or trying to see deeper into myself, or trying to get deeper into you, or him, or her, or someone. Just...I don't know. Why do we have that desire for trouble? Is it so we can arise heroic and come out of the rubble soaring? Or do we just desire that sense of uncertainty, of not knowing, of mystery, of action that lies behind the corner?
define "action"
I'm confusing myself. I need to go to bed.