reflection
I just realized that my freshman year is almost over. Okay, I haven't "just realized it," but as this day goes on, and I'm sure by the end of tomorrow, it'll hit me that I'm done being a freshman and am slowly but surely moving on in life. I have one day left of exams, and that'll be my geometry exam. Piece of cake, and then I'll be free for the summer.
I definitely need to spend a lot of time thinking about this year, since well, it was very significant to me. So much happened that I can't even begin to think of all at once without increasing the pain I currently have in my head from the heat wave. There weren't many events this year, but more emotional things that were rich in quality over quantity. There were infautations, crushes, obsessions, hates, losses, misunderstandings, letdowns, strengths, weaknesses, realizations, but most importantly, there was change.
I can't totally remember everything that happened this year, since it went by so fast. I remember the first day of school clearer than anything. I got up and put on my orange and white striped shirt, green shorts, and my green Vans. Victor was outside my door in the morning and we began walking to school; we stopped at Billy's house first. We got to school, and I could not find homeroom 160 since it was blocked off due to construction. I found Samantha in the hallway, then we found the wrestling room, AKA the makeshift choir room. I went to all my classes that day, we did some interview thing in Biology. One of the questions was "what is your favorite band?" and me and Anna both but My Chemical Romance, so when each of us went up to present, we did a little squee. The next day she said hi to me and I had no clue who she was. And now she's one of my best friends.
Friends. That's what went up and down this year. People who I thought were my friends slowly drifted apart from me, and I can't say I miss them too much. I met people who seemed great at the beginning of the year, and by now, are just another face in the crowd that's there to use and abuse me. But a couple of people I just clicked with and now they're the kind of people I never want to be away from. Anna who was pretty much my first new friend, along with Charlotte, Kelsey, Gary, Garrett, Derek...the list goes on. I love them though, and am incredibly grateful to have met them this year, you don't even know.
And besides meeting new people, this year was the year to strengthen friendships I already had. I think me and Robin became closer than ever this year, she's practically my sister and would do absolutely anything for her. We matured (not really), changed, had differing feelings, but we stayed close all year and I still love her to death. Not to mention Tal, Renee, Joslyn, Kang, Victor, Tim, Cait, Conor...all those people became so close to me this year, and we're pretty much a gang now. But that gang definitely won't replace 3a2w. :)
How about them crushes? I was such a confused little lady at the beginning of this year. I think I had a crush on a bunch of guys just because I was trying to leave myself open, I wanted to meet a guy who would like me for who I am and care about me. There were so many guys I thought were absolutely amazing, too. And now, their either my ex (well, one of them), another face in the crowd, or a close friend, which is pretty much what makes me the most happy. And I think I met that one guy, and I think I thought that he was perfect and funny and amazing for the first two weeks after I met him. Was I wrong. I had a boyfriend for the first time, and well, it was nice. It made me honestly happy. I always had this fluttery feeling in my stomach, but maybe that's because the infatuation overcame the nonexistent verisimilitude. He was nice and all, but gave me too much attention sometimes, and at sometimes, not enough. Guys need to realize that I'm a hoes before broes kinda gal, unless you're really amazing. He wasn't. He broke up with me over Facebook, I was upset for a while, then got over it, was apologized to on Thanksgiving over AIM, and then watched him date an ex friend and pretty much ruin her life.
So, here's a big thing about this year: Realization. Not everyone is whom they appear to be, no matter how cute or funny or smart they seem. Ha, did I learn that, but enough about that. I realized how I felt about a couple of people, as well as how I felt about one specific person. I hated him, I loved him, I loathed him, I felt every single way imaginable about him. But now we're just friends, best friends, and I've come to the ultimate realization that this is what I really want, and I'm infinitely happy with it.
I evolved a lot this year, me thinks. I think I've found who I am and who I want to be, I grew up from being a little scene kid and finally became myself. I even expanded my musical tastes, wow! Haha. It's probably because of all the new people I met and...yeah.
What else can I say? I actually learned stuff this year. Especially in English, I hate to say it. I'm better with some analyzation and incredibly better at writing. I got a 93 on my research paper. An A-. I'm absolutely ecstatic since I worked so hard on that. History was probably the most fun class, from review games to PGO's to Ancient Eygpt (intentionally misspelled) to Levrs to Assurbanibal II and Nebuchadnezzar II and all those godforsaken Henry's. Biology not so fun, Geometry was entertaining with me reminiscing in the middle of class with Victor and that sudden world war we had at the end of the year. Me and Jesse were Canada...seriously. Choir helped me so much with singing, Spanish was hilarious because our teacher was so oblivious and I got to spend time with Robin and Joslyn, and Study Skills helped me meet Mrs. Remick so I can hopefully have her for english next year. Physed uh...I'm awesome at ultimate frisbee and volleyball.
So what can I say? I think this is all I can really reflect on right now. I've changed a lot, matured (maybe a little), and met amazing people, which led this year to be rich in emotions rather than events...only one concert, seriously! But that was fun too, besides the point. I think this year was somewhat of a preparation for the rest of my high school years, and I think I adjusted pretty well. I'll be fine from here.
Well, after tomorrow, I'm a sophomore, and I'm sure next year will be rich in what I felt this year as well. There's nothing really else I can reflect on...well there probably is, but I can't think of it. I need to go finish up some geometry work (last assignment of the year) and maybe play a little Gameboy before I slumber.
Bye bye everybody.
<3
xox
gabbie the SOPHOMORE
I definitely need to spend a lot of time thinking about this year, since well, it was very significant to me. So much happened that I can't even begin to think of all at once without increasing the pain I currently have in my head from the heat wave. There weren't many events this year, but more emotional things that were rich in quality over quantity. There were infautations, crushes, obsessions, hates, losses, misunderstandings, letdowns, strengths, weaknesses, realizations, but most importantly, there was change.
I can't totally remember everything that happened this year, since it went by so fast. I remember the first day of school clearer than anything. I got up and put on my orange and white striped shirt, green shorts, and my green Vans. Victor was outside my door in the morning and we began walking to school; we stopped at Billy's house first. We got to school, and I could not find homeroom 160 since it was blocked off due to construction. I found Samantha in the hallway, then we found the wrestling room, AKA the makeshift choir room. I went to all my classes that day, we did some interview thing in Biology. One of the questions was "what is your favorite band?" and me and Anna both but My Chemical Romance, so when each of us went up to present, we did a little squee. The next day she said hi to me and I had no clue who she was. And now she's one of my best friends.
Friends. That's what went up and down this year. People who I thought were my friends slowly drifted apart from me, and I can't say I miss them too much. I met people who seemed great at the beginning of the year, and by now, are just another face in the crowd that's there to use and abuse me. But a couple of people I just clicked with and now they're the kind of people I never want to be away from. Anna who was pretty much my first new friend, along with Charlotte, Kelsey, Gary, Garrett, Derek...the list goes on. I love them though, and am incredibly grateful to have met them this year, you don't even know.
And besides meeting new people, this year was the year to strengthen friendships I already had. I think me and Robin became closer than ever this year, she's practically my sister and would do absolutely anything for her. We matured (not really), changed, had differing feelings, but we stayed close all year and I still love her to death. Not to mention Tal, Renee, Joslyn, Kang, Victor, Tim, Cait, Conor...all those people became so close to me this year, and we're pretty much a gang now. But that gang definitely won't replace 3a2w. :)
How about them crushes? I was such a confused little lady at the beginning of this year. I think I had a crush on a bunch of guys just because I was trying to leave myself open, I wanted to meet a guy who would like me for who I am and care about me. There were so many guys I thought were absolutely amazing, too. And now, their either my ex (well, one of them), another face in the crowd, or a close friend, which is pretty much what makes me the most happy. And I think I met that one guy, and I think I thought that he was perfect and funny and amazing for the first two weeks after I met him. Was I wrong. I had a boyfriend for the first time, and well, it was nice. It made me honestly happy. I always had this fluttery feeling in my stomach, but maybe that's because the infatuation overcame the nonexistent verisimilitude. He was nice and all, but gave me too much attention sometimes, and at sometimes, not enough. Guys need to realize that I'm a hoes before broes kinda gal, unless you're really amazing. He wasn't. He broke up with me over Facebook, I was upset for a while, then got over it, was apologized to on Thanksgiving over AIM, and then watched him date an ex friend and pretty much ruin her life.
So, here's a big thing about this year: Realization. Not everyone is whom they appear to be, no matter how cute or funny or smart they seem. Ha, did I learn that, but enough about that. I realized how I felt about a couple of people, as well as how I felt about one specific person. I hated him, I loved him, I loathed him, I felt every single way imaginable about him. But now we're just friends, best friends, and I've come to the ultimate realization that this is what I really want, and I'm infinitely happy with it.
I evolved a lot this year, me thinks. I think I've found who I am and who I want to be, I grew up from being a little scene kid and finally became myself. I even expanded my musical tastes, wow! Haha. It's probably because of all the new people I met and...yeah.
What else can I say? I actually learned stuff this year. Especially in English, I hate to say it. I'm better with some analyzation and incredibly better at writing. I got a 93 on my research paper. An A-. I'm absolutely ecstatic since I worked so hard on that. History was probably the most fun class, from review games to PGO's to Ancient Eygpt (intentionally misspelled) to Levrs to Assurbanibal II and Nebuchadnezzar II and all those godforsaken Henry's. Biology not so fun, Geometry was entertaining with me reminiscing in the middle of class with Victor and that sudden world war we had at the end of the year. Me and Jesse were Canada...seriously. Choir helped me so much with singing, Spanish was hilarious because our teacher was so oblivious and I got to spend time with Robin and Joslyn, and Study Skills helped me meet Mrs. Remick so I can hopefully have her for english next year. Physed uh...I'm awesome at ultimate frisbee and volleyball.
So what can I say? I think this is all I can really reflect on right now. I've changed a lot, matured (maybe a little), and met amazing people, which led this year to be rich in emotions rather than events...only one concert, seriously! But that was fun too, besides the point. I think this year was somewhat of a preparation for the rest of my high school years, and I think I adjusted pretty well. I'll be fine from here.
Well, after tomorrow, I'm a sophomore, and I'm sure next year will be rich in what I felt this year as well. There's nothing really else I can reflect on...well there probably is, but I can't think of it. I need to go finish up some geometry work (last assignment of the year) and maybe play a little Gameboy before I slumber.
Bye bye everybody.
<3
xox
gabbie the SOPHOMORE