these days are taxing on my soul
Emilie wrote me this email today..
Jessie, I hate to say it... but you pushed yourself away from us while Christina and I were left alone. Thats why it feels weird. We never wanted you to be left out. You left us for Andrew intentional or not... :-\ But if you would maybe stoped to think how we felt about all this and realise it wouldn't feel weird if you spent more time with us then with him and you would be happy with us as well. You almost have this mindset where you can only be happy with him. And to know that you aren't happy with Christina and I, it makes us feel... like we are worthless to you. And I know its not the case and I'm not calling you a bad friend. Thats just how things are plain and simple.
I don't know what i'm doing. I wish someone could tell me. I'm tired of treading on thin ice with myself.
Jessie, I hate to say it... but you pushed yourself away from us while Christina and I were left alone. Thats why it feels weird. We never wanted you to be left out. You left us for Andrew intentional or not... :-\ But if you would maybe stoped to think how we felt about all this and realise it wouldn't feel weird if you spent more time with us then with him and you would be happy with us as well. You almost have this mindset where you can only be happy with him. And to know that you aren't happy with Christina and I, it makes us feel... like we are worthless to you. And I know its not the case and I'm not calling you a bad friend. Thats just how things are plain and simple.
I don't know what i'm doing. I wish someone could tell me. I'm tired of treading on thin ice with myself.