just when it all seems so perfect....
well i thought last night was going to be so good just how everything had been going for the past couple weeks....no screw ups, nothing wrong..... well it couldnt have been worse... i left work and drove home and was in a real shitty mood for some reason... i just got pissed all of a sudden. and things weren't looking good for the night. messed around onlineand saw that some RANDOM person commented some RANDOM shit in my journal and that set me off..i dont know why and so i just left my house and my mom was nagging at me about lord knows what. and thennnnnn. i pick tyler up and he FINALLY had my christmas card. so we went off to our movie and i wasnt in a good mood and i just wanted my john mayer and he tried to play atmosphere and it just wasnt working for me.....so we show up at the theater and guess who comes strolling out... OH YAH MY THREE BEST FRIENDS THAT UM FORGOT? TO CALL ME....yah real sweet guys. so tyler and i go into oceans 12, havent seen oceans 11 and i couldnt focus so i just closed my eyes and played games on my cell the whole time... then we went back to his house and hung out, and talked.... ugh. i find out that he''s been telling everyone on the mother fucking planet what goes down between us. he basically just sits in a circle with ALL of his GUY friends and brags about what he gets from me....and we talked about this in the beginning and he PROMISED me he wouldnt....so i am feeling pretty shitty and pretty slutty right about now. they have NO right to know and i shouldnt feel slutty because he''s my boyfriend and all BUT STILL why does he have to tell the whole junior class. why cant it just be us. why cant it just be special. why cant he just be fucking perfect? WHY!!!!! ugh. i dont know...i guess i just reconsider how good i thought things were. nothing is perfect and i obviously found out that mine isnt. the best thing i got right now is alexys. she is perfect i tell you. she has been there for me through everything. when no one wants to listen shes there for me. and when i just want to hang out one on one she is so down. and when i need someone to relate to shes there. always there. i love her for it. so much. so yes ladies and gentlemen. MY LIFE ISNT FUCKING PERFECT. and yes. this is the dramatic life of gabrielle marie.