FUUUUUUUCK FINALS
welp, i think just about every journal entry i have read and wirtten about lately is about how fucking gayyyyyy finals are. like seriously lets just fuck the entire student body over so that we dont have good lives and dont make it into college. ok maybe its not THAT extreme, but seriousy i cant even handle it. i literally studuied my ass off for probably 5 hours for chemistry and OH YAH i STILL got a C on it. well fuck that, i came out with a B in the class when i know i could have gotten an A and thats what pisses me off the most. next year i am taking easy classes....ugh. so my geography and french finals are next. i am worried about french only because i tend to freak out when i am asked to actually speak it. i mean i can write it and listen to it all i want but for some reason actually talking almost scares me. AH! and geography.....fuck studying, i may study the map but i know that studying isnt gonna get me anywhere with how good (not) it's done for me in the past. ugh i just wanna get it over with.
YAY i FINALLY finished all my christmas shopping and i feel so relieved, now wrapping them and finishing finals are all i have to stress about....haha yuck. i am excited though because i was able to give my friends good presents this year and i am not worrying about trying to get something for everyone. whew.
this weekend was pretty good. i always give ty shit about screwing up and about how he's not very smooth with the ladies, but this weekend was just like PERFECT. he was perfect. on friday he hung out with the guys for a while and then came and got me. we went out for dinner with his whole family ((parents, brothers, grandparents)) then the basketball game, then looked at christmas lights around town, then looked at pics at his house, and then went to the movies....so perfect. saturday, i worked (again, gag me) and then went shopping with my mom....i am stoked, she bought me THE NICEST NORTH FACE COAT EVER, and it matches all my gear! yahoo! and then katie came over (we watched a special on the victoria's secret angels, wow it was cool) kristy came over and we went to the stuco christmas party..oh joy...then i took like 5 girls to stop by carries and saw her and sara and met SY....then we stopped at tylers since we had nothing else to do. but the girls just complained the whole time so i droppped them off at katies and went to bed. today, i went shopping ((last and final trip)) with my sister and then ty came and got me and we went to walmart to pick up some pictures, came back to my house, took a walk and hung out....A-MAZING!
ugh. there's only a couple things that are really bothering me right now, but it brings down my mood a lot. for some reason, katie is so rude to tyler. i dont know what it is, but i mean i was like we''re gonan stop by tylers house real quick and randi and andy are over there and katie doesnt even ask what we're doing she's just like "take me home then" it wasnt like i was putting her in a third wheel position at all (there were a total of 8 people there) but she just cant handle when i am around him for like 5 seconds. or there was the time he approached me in the hall when i was with her and she groaned (really loud and obnoxiously) and walked away. it sucks because i want to be able to hang out with everyone in a group or alone, but tyler is getting the wrong impression of her and she wont even begin to give him a chance. looks like i will have to have very definite and separate time for them....ugh.... she approved at first when i talked about him and started liking him but now that it's official, she just like cant handle it or something. ugh it stresses me out MAJOR! i try so hard to please her, but nothing is working. i dont know what else to do and i know if i ask her about it she will either deny it, or avoid the subject....BLAAAAAH shoot me in the face.
then my mom is stressed out tooo. like worse than anyone ever. her shop could go completely out of business after she's worked her ASS OFF to keep everything running smooth. all because her boss is a FUCKING ASSHOLE! i hate the guy, like not even explain able. i mean my mom doesnt cuss that much and i havent heard her stop cussing for the past few days over it, and while she worked so hard to make everything right she ended up crying more than once talking to me about it. i feel so awful and i wanna help out as much as possible but there truely isnt anything i can do. ugh. and it makes me feel real guilty spending her money on north face coats and what not, even though those two finances arent related. uggggghhh. i just feel stressed due to others stress. weird.....
well i think if i vent anymore i could possibly explode so......until next time ya'll! and if you actually took time to read this, thanks but your crazy!
*gab
YAY i FINALLY finished all my christmas shopping and i feel so relieved, now wrapping them and finishing finals are all i have to stress about....haha yuck. i am excited though because i was able to give my friends good presents this year and i am not worrying about trying to get something for everyone. whew.
this weekend was pretty good. i always give ty shit about screwing up and about how he's not very smooth with the ladies, but this weekend was just like PERFECT. he was perfect. on friday he hung out with the guys for a while and then came and got me. we went out for dinner with his whole family ((parents, brothers, grandparents)) then the basketball game, then looked at christmas lights around town, then looked at pics at his house, and then went to the movies....so perfect. saturday, i worked (again, gag me) and then went shopping with my mom....i am stoked, she bought me THE NICEST NORTH FACE COAT EVER, and it matches all my gear! yahoo! and then katie came over (we watched a special on the victoria's secret angels, wow it was cool) kristy came over and we went to the stuco christmas party..oh joy...then i took like 5 girls to stop by carries and saw her and sara and met SY....then we stopped at tylers since we had nothing else to do. but the girls just complained the whole time so i droppped them off at katies and went to bed. today, i went shopping ((last and final trip)) with my sister and then ty came and got me and we went to walmart to pick up some pictures, came back to my house, took a walk and hung out....A-MAZING!
ugh. there's only a couple things that are really bothering me right now, but it brings down my mood a lot. for some reason, katie is so rude to tyler. i dont know what it is, but i mean i was like we''re gonan stop by tylers house real quick and randi and andy are over there and katie doesnt even ask what we're doing she's just like "take me home then" it wasnt like i was putting her in a third wheel position at all (there were a total of 8 people there) but she just cant handle when i am around him for like 5 seconds. or there was the time he approached me in the hall when i was with her and she groaned (really loud and obnoxiously) and walked away. it sucks because i want to be able to hang out with everyone in a group or alone, but tyler is getting the wrong impression of her and she wont even begin to give him a chance. looks like i will have to have very definite and separate time for them....ugh.... she approved at first when i talked about him and started liking him but now that it's official, she just like cant handle it or something. ugh it stresses me out MAJOR! i try so hard to please her, but nothing is working. i dont know what else to do and i know if i ask her about it she will either deny it, or avoid the subject....BLAAAAAH shoot me in the face.
then my mom is stressed out tooo. like worse than anyone ever. her shop could go completely out of business after she's worked her ASS OFF to keep everything running smooth. all because her boss is a FUCKING ASSHOLE! i hate the guy, like not even explain able. i mean my mom doesnt cuss that much and i havent heard her stop cussing for the past few days over it, and while she worked so hard to make everything right she ended up crying more than once talking to me about it. i feel so awful and i wanna help out as much as possible but there truely isnt anything i can do. ugh. and it makes me feel real guilty spending her money on north face coats and what not, even though those two finances arent related. uggggghhh. i just feel stressed due to others stress. weird.....
well i think if i vent anymore i could possibly explode so......until next time ya'll! and if you actually took time to read this, thanks but your crazy!
*gab