schooool succcckkksss.........
yah so i am definitely in fourth period, critical skills. we never do anything in this class like honestly i have put zero effort into this and i have like 107%. anyway. i just need to talk so i am doing this instead of whatever assignment she gave us. it's not that i'm not happy, it's just that i am not satisfied in all the aspects of my life. i strive for more....i dressed up today hoping he will notice it and maybe he'll start to see what he's missing because i know for sure i am missing him. i dont understand how he liked me so much months before we were dating and then all the sudden he just turns that off. it kills me, and for some reason i cant let go of him in that aspect. i mean i love having a friendship with him but i want more. even the littlest bit more. i dont expect anything serious again because thats not what he wants. its awful because now i am just looking for a rebound and i definitely dont want that if there was any chance of anything more. i'm nt sure what i should do. i dont want to have another heart wrenching with him but i dont want to just act on instincts either because that could ruin everything....this is defintiely a LOSE-LOSE situation. not only that but i cant move on because i feel like if i move on he will come back or something retarded like that. i'm just really not sure what to do. i am trying to live in the moment and just let whatever happens happen, but this time its wayyyy hard for some reason. i am not usually like this. typically if someone tells me they are over me or whatever i will move on, give up, but this time i just have this weird gut feeling like i am missing something....hmmm i dont even know. i am sure this is getting repetitive to all of you and if it is, just dont read this shizz, but i cant just keep this bottled up. if you have any advice ((alexys please i need you))....i am very willing to listen and possibly give whatever it is a shot....i just need to snap out of it. he's over me.
p.s. school sucks, especially when you get to encounter him and pretend like you are ok, especially when you have a test 2 periods away and you dont have the material. epsecially when you defintiely have a worksheet due 3 periods away that you didnt do......oh well, that's life, that's highschool, i'm sure i'm not alone..
to all of you who put up with my bullshit day after day, i respect you and appriciate you so much for it. thanks
hoping this weekend turns out ok. hope its a little more exciting than last. give me a call, i need to get out!
meeeeeeeeeeeeee
p.s. school sucks, especially when you get to encounter him and pretend like you are ok, especially when you have a test 2 periods away and you dont have the material. epsecially when you defintiely have a worksheet due 3 periods away that you didnt do......oh well, that's life, that's highschool, i'm sure i'm not alone..
to all of you who put up with my bullshit day after day, i respect you and appriciate you so much for it. thanks
hoping this weekend turns out ok. hope its a little more exciting than last. give me a call, i need to get out!
meeeeeeeeeeeeee