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hum so unfortunately things have not been very good. I guess i am a little "naive" as people say. i use to think that all of my friends were always honest and always had my back... and it is very unfortunate that i had to learn that they r not. kaitlin and i r not really friends anymore and that is really hard for me, its like one day she just woke up and decided that she was bored with being my friend. i dunno i guess i have been tyring to think of the positive side cuz josh always tells me to do that. but the only thing that i can think of is that maybe she is just going down a different path than me. also maybe i need to make new friends. so i have decided to remember the good times we had and i guess just move on, josh was right when he told me that it is no good to be sad about something you cant change. you cant make someone want to be your friend and if i am not good enough for her than i guess it is her loss.
the next thing i learned is that people lie about there feelings. i mean the reason i dont have a boyfriend is cuz i am waiting for a certain someone, and he knows that. then he told me that he would wait for me. and he also said how he gets jealous of my friend so u know what i did, i backed off my friend for him. but then i told him that i got jealous when he hung around with this one girl, but then i call him and he is hanging out with her like everytime i call. so that hurt my feelings. then i brought him some flowers and a balloon cuz he was sick and he said thanx, but then began to treat me like a "friend" so that was gay cuz i thought i was being nice and affectionate but whatever cuz he didnt even call to apologize when he completely blew me off.
One great thing that has come from this is the fact that i have learned who my real friends are. i mean the fact that jeff and ben are always there to talk to is always wonderful. Then there is Josh....... god what an amazing person. he cares about my happiness so much and always is there to give me advice and i really appreciate him.
So, all in all this last few weeks have been bitter sweet, but in the end the people who care about you the most will always be by your side.
the next thing i learned is that people lie about there feelings. i mean the reason i dont have a boyfriend is cuz i am waiting for a certain someone, and he knows that. then he told me that he would wait for me. and he also said how he gets jealous of my friend so u know what i did, i backed off my friend for him. but then i told him that i got jealous when he hung around with this one girl, but then i call him and he is hanging out with her like everytime i call. so that hurt my feelings. then i brought him some flowers and a balloon cuz he was sick and he said thanx, but then began to treat me like a "friend" so that was gay cuz i thought i was being nice and affectionate but whatever cuz he didnt even call to apologize when he completely blew me off.
One great thing that has come from this is the fact that i have learned who my real friends are. i mean the fact that jeff and ben are always there to talk to is always wonderful. Then there is Josh....... god what an amazing person. he cares about my happiness so much and always is there to give me advice and i really appreciate him.
So, all in all this last few weeks have been bitter sweet, but in the end the people who care about you the most will always be by your side.