Wise up

[reddress11]

Title: Wise Up Part A-2
Author: Reddress11
Summary: It’s the morning after and it’s mom time. The wedding has arrived and Addison wants to believe that she’s tied up all of her loose ends. But Mama Shepherd knows this isn’t the case. The wedding is in less than an hour and the drama is just beginning. This is the second chapter in the first ending (Part A) to the story “Wise Up”. If you want earlier chapters so you know what’s going on click on my link, ‘reddress11’ under the stunning pic. Thanks for reading and please review!

Music: Beginning: Ghost: Indigo Girls
            End: The Weakness in Me: Melissa Ethridge

Music: The Beginning: Downpour: Brandi Carlile
            The Middle: White Lies: Paolo Nutini
            The End: Do What You Have to Do: Sarah McLauchlan (Beautiful song and the lyrics are really important to this pairing. Has meaning on many different levels because of its placement earlier in this story’s prologue “Start From the Beginning.”)

“Go ahead and drive, I’m not getting out.”
Looking at her, Derek questioned, “Addison?”
Grabbing the door and shutting it, she mouthed to him, “I’m sorry.”
As Derek watched the cab pull away he couldn’t explain the feeling that came over him. She had chosen and in the end she was with Mark. Addison had decided to go home with Mark, regardless of the fact that he was so clearly getting married tomorrow. How could it all have come down to this? After all of these years and everything that had happened she really was done. She had picked Mark and left him alone, cold and breathless on the ferry grounds. Every moment between them was lost, or just forgotten. She didn’t need or want him anymore.

Walking into the house Addison immediately thought of sleeping arrangements.
“Where would you like me to sleep?”
Slightly slurred, Mark answered, “Well my mother is in the room down the hall so I guess you can stay in the room next to me. It’s just up the stairs and to the right.”
“Okay-well goodnight.”
“Wait.”
Mark’s hands shook a little as he nervously tried to find something to do with them. “Can we talk for a moment?”
“Mark, what else needs to be said between us?”
“More than you know.”
“I think you made things pretty clear when you told me that I meant absolutely nothing to you.”
Motioning towards the kitchen, “Come in here, I don’t want to wake her up.”
“Izzie isn’t here is she?”
“No- Izzie hasn’t move in yet, she still has her own apartment. I was talking about my mother.”
“Oh.”
Leaning against the kitchen island, he started, “I lied, the entire speech- everything, it was a lie. I don’t know why I’m telling you this right now, maybe it’s because I’m hoping neither of us will remember this in the morning, but I love you. I’m miserable because I’ve always loved you. From the first time I met you I’ve wanted to be with you but I know that you don’t feel the same way.”
“Mark, I did love you.”
“But not enough.”
“What do you mean not enough?”
“You never loved me enough to walk away from him; to forget what you two once were and start over with me.”
Gripping the counter and looking down he continued, “You’ve always know what you’ve wanted, but you couldn’t ever find the courage tell me. So I’ll make you a deal; you don’t have to say it. You don’t have to tell me that it’s him and that always will be him. You don’t have to feel guilty and I don’t have to hear it.”
“Mark, please don’t do this.”
Becoming annoyed he answered, “How am I suppose to act? Here I am, the night before my wedding, again making a fool out of myself for you. I should have learned my lesson by now, but for some reason I just can’t stop myself.”
“Mark…stop.”
Looking up he interjected, “I want you to tell me how.”
“How what?”
“If you feel the same the way, as you claim, then how can you just forget all of it? How do you just make this feeling go away? I’ve tried and it’s not working. I’m getting married tomorrow and all I can think about is you. So please- tell me, because you seem to be doing a damn good job.”
Addison knew that things between her and Mark would never work; she could only hurt him in the end. Addison would never be able to give him everything he needed. She loved him enough to recognize that they had come to the end of their road. Mark was the drug that she couldn’t say no to. They were an addiction for each other. Both desired the high that the other so willingly gave, but inevitably crashed every time when the illusion wore off. However each time, no matter how much it hurt , they couldn’t stop themselves from trying to go back; wanting to feel it one more time.
Addison didn’t want things to be over but knew that they had to be. Neither one of them could any longer afford to keep chasing after what was never meant to last.
“I love you, Mark and I am always going to want you, but we weren’t meant to be together. I think we’ve been fighting it for too long. We’re addicted to each other; it’s just that simple. We’re willing to throw it all away because we can’t stand the idea of walking away.”
Raising her hand, she let her fingertips dance along his face. Cupping his chin in one hand she slowly brought him into her mouth and slid her lips over his. Instantly responding, Mark drew her in closer; stringing his fingers through her hair.
For moments neither of them broke apart; both gave into their addiction one last time. Stepping away, Addison grabbed his hand and led him from the kitchen.
“Where are you going?”
Taking the stairs one at a time she looked behind and answered, “I’m not going to sleep with you Mark; I won’t ruin what you two have together. I am however, going to say goodbye the only way you and I know how to.”
Walking into his room, she let go of his hand and shut the door behind them.
“Lay down.”
“What are you doing?”
“Just lay down Mark.”
Walking over to his dresser she pulled out a pair of his boxers and took off her jeans. When she was done, she crawled into bed next to him. Kissing his hand she wrapped his arms around her waist.
Whispering against his lips, she finished, “This is our last goodbye, Mark. It has to end. So for us… just do this, and then I’ll go. Love me and stay here with me tonight.”
Tightening his grip, he answered her request, “I don’t want it to all end.”
“It’s not Mark, you’re just beginning.”
Closing his eyes, he kissed her for the last time, “I love you.”
In the dark, she curled up a little closer and breathed, “I loved you too.”
A/N: First thing is first, I know I’m the queen of Typos but I’m pretty sure there are none in this. Meaning that “I loved you too,” is not a typo, lol. Okay the beginning to the first ending. I know, a little bit of a surprise but believe me more is to come. And I haven’t forgotten about other characters. I tried my best in this first ending (Part A) to explain why they wouldn’t have worked, or at least I’ve begun to explain. Part B, I think I might start and post along side Part A updates. Thanks for reading and no worries it’s not over yet for either Addek fans or Maddison people. Oh, one final note, READ LYRICS they are actually important. There is a reason why I write to these songs. The lyrics explain what’s going on and sometimes foreshadow.
Downpour: Brandi Carlile
I'm like the rain in a downpour
I wash away what you long for
And I wave goodbye with the sun in my eyes
I wish I could be there tonight

I'm like the wind in the canyon
I'm there when I'm gone in a second
You're growing older in peace where you're at
I wish I could be there for that
But I've moved on
Like a rolling stone
In a crowded room
I'm alone

I'm like the rain in a downpour
I wash away what you long for
And I wave goodbye with the sun in my eyes
I wish I could be there tonight
Oh, oh, yeah

You're like the tide in the deep blue
Cause you're always there when I need you
And when you need someone to carry you through
I'm gonna be there for you
I'm gonna be there for you

White Lies: Paolo Nutini
There's a heart on the line, and it rests with your eyes
Please don't fade and please don't cry, 'cause it's all white lies
Take a chance watch it fall, grab too much and lose it all
Now i've lost my disguise, it was all white lies

Stay here, lie here with me, oh lo-fi, lonley sighs
I will roam lost but never alone, hide with me, hide

Would it help if I tried, or has it sailed and passed me by
First love grows then it does, and its all white lies

Stay here, lie here with me, oh lo-fi, lonley sighs
I will roam lost but never alone, hide with me, hide with me

Now you move with the tide and ive heard you've found peace of mind
And I know that life's design moves around white lies, white lies, white lies, white lies

Do What You Have to Do: Sara McLaughlan
What ravages of spirit
Conjured this temptuous rage
Created you a monster
Broken by the rules of love
And fate has led you through it
You do what you have to do
And fate has led you through it
You do what you have to do ...
And I have the sense to recognize that
I don’t know how to let you go
Every moment marked
With apparitions of your soul
I’m ever swiftly moving
Trying to escape this desire
The yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
The yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
But I have the sense to recognize
That I don’t know how
To let you go
I don’t know how
To let you go
A glowing ember
Burning hot
Burning slow
Deep within I’m shaken by the violence
Of existing for only you
I know I can’t be with you
I do what I have to do
I know I can’t be with you
I do what I have to do
And I have sense to recognize but
I don’t know how to let you go
I don’t know how to let you go
I don’t know how to let you go

Dream
Mark slid off her top and heatedly pushed Addison up against the counter top. Pulling at his jeans Addison hurriedly tried to rid him of his clothing.
Running his tongue along the bottom of her jaw, he whispered in her ear, “I love you.”
His hands slid up her skirt and pushed down her panties. In one swift movement he lifted her onto the counter and spread her legs.
Kissing her neck, he moved towards her chest. “I love you Addison. I only want to be with you.”
With her eyes closed and her head back, she loudly moaned as he slipped into her. With each thrust she curled her fingers into his wavy black hair.
“I never loved her the same way. I should have been never left you.”
As he reached in between their bodies and roughly rubbed her clit, her breathing became erratic until all of her muscles finally tighten around him. Cuming, she breathlessly answered, “I love you too Derek.”
Pushing his head back from its resting place on her chest she smiled into his dark blue eyes. “Don’t wake up Addison.”
“What?”
Derek leaned up and kissed her, “I said, don’t wake up. Just stay here with me.”
BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP
Addison’s eyes flew open. Looking around she tried to focus on the room and remember where she was. Trying to sit up, she couldn’t move as Mark wrapped his arm around her waist. Looking over and seeing Mark’s face buried into a pillow she quickly looked down at herself and patted down her body. Finding that she was still fully clothed she breathed a sigh of relief, “Thank god.”
Addison smiled as she looked at Mark; he looked peaceful. Removing his arm from her waist she briefly kissed his cheek. In response Mark groaned and rolled over. Crawling out of bed Addison grabbed her jeans and boots. Turning at the door she looked one last time at Mark and whispered, “Goodbye. I hope you find happiness.”
Walking into the kitchen Addison quickly called for cab service and then checked her messages. There were two from Derek and one from his mother.
Message
Addie dear, it’s your favorite mother in-law, Anne. Derek told me that you’re in Seattle. That’s wonderful; I’m flying in for the wedding around noon. I guess I try to get a hold of you again after I’m settled. I can’t wait to see you; it’s been what… a month? Talk to you soon.

“So how was it?”
Pulling up a chair she answered, “It was a typical bachelor party.”
“Did anything happen?” The tone of Callie’s voice made it apparent as to the real question she wanted to ask.
“I said goodbye.”
“Goodbye, to whom?”
“Mark.”
Silence fell over the room, “Oh. Did you make the right decision?”
Addison thought over last night and the look on Mark’s face.
“I think so.”
“You think so?”
“I didn’t want to… but it was right.”
“Did you love him?”
Rubbing her eyes she answered, “Like crazy, but it wasn’t enough.”
“What do you mean it wasn’t enough?”
“I love him but I don’t want to spend the rest of my life with him.”
“Did you tell him that?”
“In so many words.”
“What did you say?”
“It wasn’t what we said it was more what both felt and knew.”
“And what was that?”
“Love; when I fell asleep with him I felt love.”
“Mmm… you felt love?”
“And loss, but it wasn’t unbearable. It was just… loss.”
As Addison stared at the wall, oblivious to the world outside her own mind, Callie cocked her eyebrow, “And what did you know?”
Shifting her focus back to Callie, “Know?”
“You said that you both felt and knew something. So what was it?”
“We both knew that it was over.”
“And…”
“And what?”
Callie sighed as she patiently attempted to lead her, “Why was it over?”
“I told you, because we both knew that I didn’t love him enough.”
Rushing the conversation to drive home her point, Callie continued, “Why? Why didn’t you love him enough?”
“I wasn’t willing to walk away and forget.”
“Forget what Addison?”
In silence neither of them said a word. Both knew as they held eye contact the reason that Addison couldn’t start over with Mark.
“Nothing has changed Addison. You’re coming full circle to the reason that you first came to Seattle. You’re not fully there yet but you’re past half way.”
Sitting up a little Callie continued, “You said that you felt love with Mark, what kind of love was it?”
“An addiction; Mark was an addiction that I couldn’t let go. I kept thinking that if things were different; if the circumstances changed it would work.”
Callie was by no means an expert on relationships but she did know what love felt like. Callie had, like most, experienced both love and infatuation. Both feelings she knew could be tremendously powerful: lead someone to do things that they never thought they would. But no matter how all encompassing infatuation and love were they nothing compared to the addictiveness of hope. Over the past three years of their friendship, Callie had seen Addison experience all three emotions. Callie, unbeknownst to Addison, knew what her friend’s weakness would forever be.
“Hope Addison. Hope is the reason that you haven’t moved on. Your addiction isn’t the idea of Mark and happiness with him. Your addiction is the idea that he can fill that void; maybe help dissipate that nagging feeling of hope that’s been with you all along.”
She didn’t know why she all of a sudden was annoyed but Addison sarcastically answered, “So that’s what it is?”
“Don’t get that tone with me.” Holding her stomach, Callie pursed her lips together, “I may be pregnant and you may be my doctor but don’t think I won’t smack some sense into you. You’re not mad at me, so don’t pretend that you are. You’re made life, Addison. The only question is why?”
“You said I’ve come full circle, but to tell you the truth I feel like the only thing I’m circling is the drain.”
Standing up Addison firmly set her hands on her hips and began pacing the room, “Hope? What the hell? What am I hoping for? I’m drying up here and I think that hope is long gone.”
“You’re not as dry as you think. Don’t try to play the realist with me Addison Montgomery. You are a dreamer, masquerading as realist, who is trying to make herself into a pessimist.”
Stopping, she confusingly looked at Callie, “What the hell does that mean?”
“It means you’re still looking for that fairytale but you don’t want to admit it. Just because things weren’t perfect doesn’t mean that it still can’t be wonderful. The white horse and happily ever after is over rated. Open up those big blue eyes of yours and stop chasing your tail. You know what you want. You have always known. You just weren’t always been able to have it. People make mistakes and things aren’t always the way we planned or envisioned they would be. You’re good person and you deserve to have that dream. So don’t ignore that feeling; move past hope already and do something about it.”
Grabbing her bag, Addison answered, “Maybe I will.”
Shooting her a doubting look Callie answered, “Right… sure you will.”
“You don’t think I will?”
“Addison, I love you like a sister but you are just as scared today as you probably were sixteen years ago.”
“I am not scared.”
“Then prove it to me. The only drain that you’re circling is the one that keeps sucking all rationality out of your mind. Stop talking to me about what you think you wanted and go get who you’ve always loved. Go make your own fairytale.”

“We need to talk.”
“About what?”
Walking into his office Burke knew where their conversation was heading and he wasn’t sure if he was up to the challenge today.
“About yesterday; what the hell was that?”
“Sex Cristina, we had sex. Good sex if I remember correctly.”
“That’s my point. We’re not doing that. We don’t do that.”
“Since when have you been a stickler for commitment and sex only in relationships?”
“Since I was left at the altar by someone who clearly didn’t want to be with me.”
“It’s not wanting, Cristina. It’s more like I couldn’t.”
“You couldn’t? Fine, that’s just great. But do me a favor, no more sex. It just complicates things.”
As she moved to leave the room he answered, “I don’t like to see you with other people.”
Pissed she answered, “You don’t like the fact that I’m fucking other people?”
“No.”
“Well I’m not the one who made that decision to walk away. So I don’t really care how you feel about what I’m doing.”
“I don’t want to always have to be fighting you for the driver’s seat. In Our entire relationship I had to push you to commit. I’m not interested in convincing someone that they should be with me. I’m Preston Burke, I don’t need to beg.”
“Then don’t.”
“I just can’t help myself with you.”
“Burke… Preston, you don’t have to beg. I might be, well whatever the hell I am, but I don’t want you to beg. I just needed space and room to think. I needed you to love and appreciate the fact that I just couldn’t go there. Not then.”
“What about now?”
“It seems to me that I’m already there now.”
“And where is there?”
Walking up to him, she inhaled the scent of his aftershave, “With you, waiting for you to ask me to commit. I’m waiting for the opportunity to commit to you.”
Looking down he answered, “Marriage?”
“No, companionship. You said that needed me to commit, now I’m asking you a favor. Don’t make me marry you when I won’t take that step.”
“Why won’t you take that step?”
“Because marriage is a finalization. It means that we’re legally bond to each other. And I don’t want to feel connected to you through a piece of paper. I want to know that I’m with you because I want to be. I don’t want obligation, just trust.”
Thinking over it for a few moment he answered, “What about my need for that piece of paper?”
“I guess you need to trust that someday I’ll give that you. But someday isn’t today. I don’t know when it will happen. Can you accept that?”
Burke thought for a moment. If he didn’t he’d be miserable and if he did he would be right back where he started two years ago. In the end though, he figured that it was better to start from the beginning than to move on and accept the loss.
“Okay.”

Sliding on her heels, Addison anxiously awaited for him to arrive. Derek had promised that he would pick her up and give her a ride to the church. However, after last night and her refusal to go home with him she wasn’t sure if he would even want to see her.
As the door bell sounded Addison calmed herself. She had made her decision, she would leave the same way that she had came: alone and reconciled.
Opening the front door Addison was slightly surprised to not see Derek but instead his mother.
“Ann?”
Hugging her, Ann replied, “Hi Darling. I know, a little bit of a surprise. Did you get my message?”
“Yeah, but I thought that I’d see you there.”
“Oh, well Derek was a little preoccupied and he asked if I could come and pick you up.”
“Okay?”
On the way to the church, Ann practically talked Addison’s ear off.
“Nancy was just so upset that she couldn’t make it. And Julia, well she told me to tell you that you better come out to Connecticut to visit. So do you think you’ll be able to in the next couple of months?”

Starring out the window Addison had zoned out briefly, “What?”
“Connecticut, Julie, do you think you’ll be able to get away in a few months and visit your nieces and nephews?”
“Oh- I guess. I mean of course, I’ll try to find the time to visit Julie and the kids.”
“Your nieces and nephews,” Ann corrected.
“Do I still count as their Aunt? I mean you know I love them, but Derek and I have been divorced for almost three years.”
Reaching over Ann patted her leg, “Addison, divorce or not you are not escaping this family. Once you’re in, you’re lifer; sorry.”
Smiling, Addison softly offered, “Thanks that means a lot to me Ann.”
“So are you seeing anyone?”
“A… no. I was for a while but it just wasn’t going to work out.”
“He wasn’t your type?”
“No, he was. There was just always something missing. Pete was a nice guy but it seemed like the entire relationship I was always waiting for the other shoe to drop.”
“And did it?”
“You know… no. But by that time it didn’t matter. I just realized that it wasn’t him it was me. I was the one who didn’t want to the relationship to succeed. It sounds crazy but for some reason, anytime I date I’m always waiting for something to go wrong. And when it doesn’t, I end it.”
“I don’t think it’s crazy, dear. Why shouldn’t you be waiting? You had dream, then the other shoe did drop and it was over.”
Still looking ahead Addison answered, “R-I-G-H-T.”
“So why did you come back?”
“Callie Torres is an old friend of mine and she wanted me to deliver her baby.”
Copying her tone, Ann replied, “R-I-G-H-T. So what’s the real reason that you came back?”
“I just told you.”
“Addison Forbes Montgomery- Shepherd, don’t lie to your mother. And yes, I said Shepherd and mother because as we covered before, you were always and will always be part of this family.”
“I came back to say goodbye.”
“To whom?”
“Mark.”
“Ah… Mark. And why did you say goodbye?”
“We didn’t end things very well the last time I saw him.”
“What happened?”
Shifting uncomfortably in her seat Addison thought if there was any way that she could avoid the question.
“Addison, tell your mother. You know I won’t judge you.”
“I tried to say goodbye and explain to him why I was leaving and he didn’t take it too well.”
“Why?”
“I told him that I was leaving so that I could start over and have a family. Then he asked why. He wanted me to stay here and start over with him. He wanted to have a child together.”
“And you said no, why?”
“He wasn’t ready.”
“And?”
“And I wasn’t ready to have a child with him. I didn’t want to hold him back and I didn’t think I could do it.”
“Do you love Mark?”
“I do, I really do love Mark. I know that’s weird telling you, but I did.”
“So why won’t things work?”
“I love Mark, but I don’t want to spend the rest of my life with him. I don’t think I could give him all that he needs.”
“Why?”
“I’m not ready to give him everything he needs.”
“Not ready or don’t want to?”
“I don’t want to.”
“And what is it that he needs?”
Addison again looked out the window. She didn’t want to have to say it, so she hoped that her silence would speak louder than words.
On cue, as well as any maternal mother, Ann knew exactly what Addison was thinking, “Derek. It’s Derek that’s the problem. He’s always been the problem in that relationship hasn’t he?”
When Addison still didn’t make eye contact she continued, “He wanted you to forget about him, right? Move on?”

Still starring out the window, Addison answered, “Yeah. I know sounds silly but it’s just something that I’m not willing to do.”
Driving into the church parking lot and parking the vehicle, Ann turned to Addison, “It doesn’t sound silly to me at all. When you are still in love someone, the way you are with Derek, you never get over it and you can’t walk away.”
“I never said that I was still in love with Derek.”
“Call it a mother’s instinct, then. Or, it could be the fact that you said that you came back to say goodbye, but you didn’t mention Derek.”
“What if I’ve already said goodbye to Derek?”
“Addison, I know you both all too well. I know that you were hurt and running after he did what he did to you: both times. But things between you too are never over. When two people were meant to be together they always find their way back to each other. You and Derek do always seem to be starting from the beginning.” Leaning in she finished, “And I guess that’s my point sweetheart. There always been beginnings for you two but never a definite end.”
Getting out of the car and walking away, she finished, “You think about that.”

A/N: Okay this is the second part to Part A’s ending. And if you haven’t already guessed this is the Addek ending. I know right now it seems like things are moving slowly, but don’t worry it’s all the buildup. Hang in there with me fans, I know you’re going to wonder what the hell I’m doing but if you’re an Addek fan I promise all will end well in Part A. Other than that, Maddison people, I will be updating really soon, no worries. As for other character’s involvement I try to put other story lines in. I apologize if you’re not interested in the other ships I use. Most often I use other ships to highlight and mirror what is happening, already been, or possibly going to take place in Addison’s love life. As always please review, and read the song lyrics they are also very important in foreshadowing. Thanks :)
Indigo Girls - Ghost Lyrics

there's a letter on the desktop
that i dug out of a drawer
the last truce we ever came to
in our adolescent war
and i start to feel the fever
from the warm air through the screen
you come regular like seasons
shadowing my dreams

and the mississippi's mighty
but it starts in minnesota
at a place that you could walk across
with five steps down
and i guess that's how you started
like a pinprick to my heart
but at this point you rush right through me
and i start to drown

and there's not enough room
in this world for my pain
signals cross and love gets lost
and time passed makes it plain
of all my demon spirits
i need you the most
i'm in love with your ghost
i'm in love with your ghost

dark and dangerous like a secret
that gets whispered in a hush
(don't tell a soul)
when i wake the things i dreamt about you
last night make me blush
(don't tell a soul)
and you kiss me like a lover
then you sting me like a viper
i go follow to the river
play your memory like a piper

and i feel it like a sickness
how this love is killing me
i'd walk into the fingers
of your fire willingly
and dance the edge of sanity
i've never been this close
i'm in love with your ghost

unknowing captor
you never know how much you
pierce my spirit
but i can't touch you
can you hear it
a cry to be free
oh i'm forever under lock and key
as you pass through me

now i see your face before me
i would launch a thousand ships
to bring your heart back to my island
as the sand beneath me slips
as i burn up in your presence
and i know now how it feels
to be weakened like achilles
with you always at my heels

this bitter pill i swallow
is the silence that i keep
it poisons me i can't swim free
the river is too deep
though i'm baptized by your touch
i am no worse than most
in love with your ghost

you are shadowing my dreams
(in love with your ghost)
(in love with your ghost)
(in love with your ghost)
Song: The Weakness on Me Lyrics
I'm not the sort of person who falls in and quickly out of love
But to you, I give my affection, right from the start.
I have a lover who loves me - how could I break such a heart?
Yet still you get my attention.

Why do you come here, when you know I've got troubles enough?
Why do you call me, when you know I can't answer the phone?
And make me lie when I don't want to,
And make someone else some kind of an unknowing fool?
Make me stay when I should not?
If you're so strong then resolve the weakness in me.
Why do you come here, and pretend to be just passing by?
I need to see you - I need to hold you - tightly.

Feeling guilty,
And I'm worried, and I'm waking from a tormented sleep
'Cause this old love, you know it has me bound,
But this new love cuts so deep.
If I choose now, I'm bound to lose out;
One of you is gonna have to fall...
I need you, baby.

Why do you come here, when you know I've got troubles enough?
Why do you call me, when you know I can't answer the phone?
And make me lie when I don't want to,
And make someone else some kind of an unknowing fool?
Make me stay when I should not?
If you're so strong then resolve the weakness in me.
Why do you come here, and pretend to be just passing by?
I need to see you - I need to hold you - tightly.