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Title- Always Her
Author- Kimberly
Rating- PG
Character- Derek
Summary- Derek thinks on his way to speak with Rose. Written in response to a prompt at 15_minute_fic.
It was how he felt when he caught his wife cheating on him with his best friend.
It was how he felt when he lifted Meredith’s lifeless body out of the ocean.
It was how he felt when he was doing the last surgery in his experiment.
Frantic.
Derek Shepherd wasn’t a man who got excited very easily. In his profession, he needed to keep his cool. In a big surgery, if there was a bleeder, you couldn’t get excited. You had to just fix it. Ever since medical school, he had taken that approach to life.
But now as he drove to see Rose, to speak with her, he was frantic. Rose was great, she was amazing, she was everything he had wanted to be Meredith, only she wasn’t Meredith. And now Meredith was everything he had ever wanted Meredith to me. She had constructed their home out of candles. And he intended on making her Meredith Grey-Shepherd before she got the chance to change her mind.
One million thoughts were going through his mind right now. What was he going to say to Rose? “Sorry, you’re amazing and I am probably incredibly stupid for walking away from you, but I’m still in love with Meredith.” Would that work? Or would he need to use the “It’s not you, it’s me,” line. He needed to get back to Meredith though and talk to her.
He needed a ring and a location and all those words he would need to express how much he loved her and how he never stopped loving her and how she was already extraordinary to him without even trying. She was finally ready, to settle down, to have children and she had been right in front of her the whole time.
All he had to do was back off and give her a little room to breathe. Not go have a relationship with another woman. That had been wrong of him, but he was ready for the house and the white picket fence. He was frantic to get those things before he was too old to play football with his son, or have tea parties with his daughter.
He wasn’t perfect. He was far from perfect. But Meredith, she was amazing. She had suffered so much and somehow she was still a whole person. She had her issues, but so did he. After all, he did spend too much time on his hair, only to put a surgical cap over it, but no matter where he was or who he was with, he still loved Meredith. In his mind he had constantly compared her to Meredith and no one could hold a candle to his Meredith, his extraordinary Meredith, even if they tried.
He pulled up to Rose’s home and sighed softly. It was time to face the music. He got out of his car and walked up her front steps. She came to the door and smiled politely. “Rose, we need to talk.”
“Yes Derek, we do.”
Author- Kimberly
Rating- PG
Character- Derek
Summary- Derek thinks on his way to speak with Rose. Written in response to a prompt at 15_minute_fic.
It was how he felt when he caught his wife cheating on him with his best friend.
It was how he felt when he lifted Meredith’s lifeless body out of the ocean.
It was how he felt when he was doing the last surgery in his experiment.
Frantic.
Derek Shepherd wasn’t a man who got excited very easily. In his profession, he needed to keep his cool. In a big surgery, if there was a bleeder, you couldn’t get excited. You had to just fix it. Ever since medical school, he had taken that approach to life.
But now as he drove to see Rose, to speak with her, he was frantic. Rose was great, she was amazing, she was everything he had wanted to be Meredith, only she wasn’t Meredith. And now Meredith was everything he had ever wanted Meredith to me. She had constructed their home out of candles. And he intended on making her Meredith Grey-Shepherd before she got the chance to change her mind.
One million thoughts were going through his mind right now. What was he going to say to Rose? “Sorry, you’re amazing and I am probably incredibly stupid for walking away from you, but I’m still in love with Meredith.” Would that work? Or would he need to use the “It’s not you, it’s me,” line. He needed to get back to Meredith though and talk to her.
He needed a ring and a location and all those words he would need to express how much he loved her and how he never stopped loving her and how she was already extraordinary to him without even trying. She was finally ready, to settle down, to have children and she had been right in front of her the whole time.
All he had to do was back off and give her a little room to breathe. Not go have a relationship with another woman. That had been wrong of him, but he was ready for the house and the white picket fence. He was frantic to get those things before he was too old to play football with his son, or have tea parties with his daughter.
He wasn’t perfect. He was far from perfect. But Meredith, she was amazing. She had suffered so much and somehow she was still a whole person. She had her issues, but so did he. After all, he did spend too much time on his hair, only to put a surgical cap over it, but no matter where he was or who he was with, he still loved Meredith. In his mind he had constantly compared her to Meredith and no one could hold a candle to his Meredith, his extraordinary Meredith, even if they tried.
He pulled up to Rose’s home and sighed softly. It was time to face the music. He got out of his car and walked up her front steps. She came to the door and smiled politely. “Rose, we need to talk.”
“Yes Derek, we do.”