the end
I'm so fucking unhappy here. I have no one and nothing left in this fucking town. I'd love to just kill myself, but I really have no efficient means. I guess I can take my bottle of ibuprofen and oxycodone and whatever muscle relaxers I have left. And lots of alcohol. Think that'd do it?
I'm just fucking sick of working hard and trying my ass off to get somewhere and still being stuck in the same fucking place. I have no friends here because everyone I knew has graduated and/or moved away. It sucks. Now my girlfriend has moved too. So now I have two shitty fucking jobs that suck. That's all I fucking have. It certainly isn't something to make me pull myself out of bed in the morning. I fucking just want to die. I hate it. I hate everything about my life. I don't wanna be here anymore. I have nothing left. I just wanna be loved. I wanna be successful. I just want to not feel like a failure.
I'm just fucking sick of working hard and trying my ass off to get somewhere and still being stuck in the same fucking place. I have no friends here because everyone I knew has graduated and/or moved away. It sucks. Now my girlfriend has moved too. So now I have two shitty fucking jobs that suck. That's all I fucking have. It certainly isn't something to make me pull myself out of bed in the morning. I fucking just want to die. I hate it. I hate everything about my life. I don't wanna be here anymore. I have nothing left. I just wanna be loved. I wanna be successful. I just want to not feel like a failure.