Just can't fight this feeling
I have this unexplainable urge to go home. And not my home here in the town where I am going to school, but my home where I grew up. I honestly hate that town with a passion as there is nothing to do there and there's like a grand total of about 15 people there I'd actually care to encounter, and that 15 is including my parents. But I just want to go home....I want to be a "kid" again. Going home is like being a kid again. Granted, I would still be 24 if I ventured home, but I'd be treated like a quasi-child again. Mom would fix my meals and do my laundry. We'd all make trips into town to go shopping and they'd buy me clothes or shoes if I needed them, and then we'd go eat out and see a movie. It would be so fun to just stop thinking about all the grown up responsibilities and bullshit I have going on right now. To not have to plan out what I'm having for dinner and fix it. To not have to keep track of bills and how much money I have in my account. To have someone treat me to something nice without having to worry "Can I afford this?". It's so odd how when we are kids all we can think about is how much we want to grow up and be adults and take care of ourselves. And now that I am an adult, I want to be a kid again. I want to have a mandatory nap time. I want someone to pack me a lunch each day. I want someone to drive me around town. I want the biggest thing on my mind to be getting my book report done or why the girl in my class is being a snob to me. Don't get me wrong, I HATED high school, and I never want to go back to that, but damn. Now I have to deal with papers being due AND bullshit drama with classmates AND work AND bills AND relationships (or lack thereof) AND my sports training. I would love to go home and just sit on my ass and be bored out of my mind. I wouldn't even mind being bored right now. Just a complete shut down of thought and effort is what I need. If only it was possible....
Maybe in mid-May I can make it there....