the Left of Center Quest (ripped from my OKCupid "blog")
I've been spending a lot of time with an old friend I'd thought I'd lost when I came out. Its been nice, reconnecting, almost picking up exactly where we'd left off (me with more debt and a slightly more weary world view I suspect), and its really refreshing. He's helping me out with my car situation and its given us plenty of time to talk. Newly returned to the online dating scene, he goes on (and on) about the criteria of cyber-dating in his slightly fixated way, from his slightly more vanilla sites, and I find myself wondering about this one absently. While he goes on about the physical characteristics of young perky girl X, I smirk and listen attentitvley and marvel at how I might not be looking for the right qualities in the...slightly left of center quest of my own. Maybe I don't know what I'm looking for. A well read, charasmatic, self assured dreamer. All of that sounds lovely on paper. Reality? Always another matter. I understand things are less clearly defined in boystown, (and maybe its a little unrealistic to expect nauseating romance) but I find I might have been made a fool by all of those Disney movies I watched as a snot. Is looking for fulfillment anywhere but within a mistake? Is expecting to find "the love of your life" (and god this sounds ridiculous even as its typed) even logical? This is me at a loss. Dreamers, thinkers, what say you?