total mind fuck
i need sleep
i need to not drink
i need to be normal
i need to get back to work
i need to be normal and be normal around people
i havent been myself lately, ive been a wreck, and its a combination of every fucking thing
family, people moving, old stress, alcohol, insomnia, too much time on my hands, and the fear of growing up are all elements that have combined to totally alter my usual cool collected state
to anyone ive just left wondering "what the fucks wrong with him?" over this week, i seriously apoligize
paranoia, irritability, and irrationality will be replaced quickly once this next week kicks off
at least i hope thats it
i need to not drink
i need to be normal
i need to get back to work
i need to be normal and be normal around people
i havent been myself lately, ive been a wreck, and its a combination of every fucking thing
family, people moving, old stress, alcohol, insomnia, too much time on my hands, and the fear of growing up are all elements that have combined to totally alter my usual cool collected state
to anyone ive just left wondering "what the fucks wrong with him?" over this week, i seriously apoligize
paranoia, irritability, and irrationality will be replaced quickly once this next week kicks off
at least i hope thats it