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I
miss
smoking
God
F**king
Dammit.
You'd think it wouldn't be an issue after 10 months. But it is.
It's not a chemical craving as much as it is something else entirely. Today was a very stressful day, one of those that creeps up on you and before you know it you're nothing more than a bundle of frayed nerves waiting to explode. There was nothing, and I mean nothing better on those days that a smoke. Or several. You'd come home with barbequed lungs you smoked so much, but those fuckers kept you sane.
I worked out a ton yesterday too, so it wasn't that. :P
It just comes down to coping mechanisms. It's not about smoking, but about how to deal with things. Sometimes, the honest truth is that you need to step out for awhile, but you can't quite do that regularly without drawing attention to yourself. Unless you're smoking that is.
I don't anticipate a repeat for awhile, but these days do happen.
(For some of you that were online chatting with me in between stuff, thank you. It kept me sane.)
(And the smoking on my balcony on a hot summer night.... damn I miss that too.)
miss
smoking
God
F**king
Dammit.
You'd think it wouldn't be an issue after 10 months. But it is.
It's not a chemical craving as much as it is something else entirely. Today was a very stressful day, one of those that creeps up on you and before you know it you're nothing more than a bundle of frayed nerves waiting to explode. There was nothing, and I mean nothing better on those days that a smoke. Or several. You'd come home with barbequed lungs you smoked so much, but those fuckers kept you sane.
I worked out a ton yesterday too, so it wasn't that. :P
It just comes down to coping mechanisms. It's not about smoking, but about how to deal with things. Sometimes, the honest truth is that you need to step out for awhile, but you can't quite do that regularly without drawing attention to yourself. Unless you're smoking that is.
I don't anticipate a repeat for awhile, but these days do happen.
(For some of you that were online chatting with me in between stuff, thank you. It kept me sane.)
(And the smoking on my balcony on a hot summer night.... damn I miss that too.)