Still Fucking Breathing....{damn I gota fix that soon}
Well everyone that cares or gives a crap, I'm still breathing even though I have tryed to undo that a few times since last post. {dont ask, i won't tell ya} There is only one way that I can describe the way things have been in my life... I'm not dead. {yet} Just about every night I wish I would die as I lay down to sleep but I awake to find once again that no one is hearing my prayers so I decided to stop asking. {for now} I do have some reason now in my life to be alive & I am thankful for it. It being one of the only things stoping me from jumping in front of the train everytime it pulls into the station. Life just don't seam the same if no one gives a crap about you but they want you to listen to every problem they have. I needed someone to listen to my moans and bitches once in awhile. But that me and my shitty life as it is now. Hopefully someone up there will check there inbox and see that i'm tired of being treated like crap by all the females that I care... CARED about and let me not have a fit everytime I see them. Its hard to feel the way I feel about some people and have them treat my like something they scraped off the bottom of there shoe. Well, thats all I have to say for now. Mabey I'll get lucky and you all will hear about me in the paper... Under the death notices. Untill next time, if there is one.