hmm...

[g_i_jared]

Almost every girl I've ever had any interest in is in some awesome relationship with some awesome guy and despite all the shitty things in the world that happen to everyone, things are going to be just peachy because they have eachother. Excuse me while I go vomit ironically. Has being forced into relationship abstinence by our government and U.S. military made me a little bitter... maybe. I can't even have a long distance girlfriend who cheats on me behind my back... I just have to be single. Atleast the cheating one tells you she loves you once a week. I settle for the same sentiment from my mom. It just carries a little different of a connotation huh? What it really comes down to is I'm jealous. I'm jealous of people living in the United States living the American dream of young adults everywhere. I'm jealous of all the pretentious fuckers in college debating on what happens here and then going back to the dorms or their apartment and getting drunk and raping strippers. (Go Duke Lacrosse!) Really I'm just jealous of anyone in college. I'm jealous of anyone with a social life. I'm jealous of anyone my age in a good meaningful relationship. I'm almost sick of calling people back home. If they have good things to tell me I'm jealous and if they have stuff to complain about I bite my tongue because their shit seems unimportant (not to say it is, it just seems that way). Excuse me while I call home. Mom first, then maybe a friend, and perhaps a girl (I'd like to hear about how awesome their boyfriend is).

Oh, and I've decided that this journal is going to die when this deployment does... I'll leave it up, but I don't intend to update it anymore after I get settled in back home.