i open the other chapter of the book

[g_i_g_g_s]

it is really , really crazy if you have somebody who has grown up with you. the person will understand you, and the way you speak no matter how abstract it may seem. It is as if your minds have been forged from the same starting point, and grow together in line, developing along the same level of maturity, stage by stage. You will nv really understand this till your speak to an outsider and realise how lost he is during your conversations.

talking about myself.
today.. a revelation.
so powerful the realisation that it leaves me quite exhausted, yet still thinking
how could i have known this simple fact only today.
i am not stupid. yet i was clouded
and i say again, that i was mixed.

and after i talked...
i was thinking.
it was crazy.

maybe i could be bad. yes, why cant i do it?
for what i wanted, i could do to achieve it
for this thought was so sinister..
it made all ahead look ominous and grim
and it was just an impulse
though much a very fleeting one

of later, i thought, that was not to be
again, i should not be thinking too much

yet i am happy
for i have opened and told.. and listened for all that i could learn