Oct 31, 2004 20:42
It's the end of the world as I know it. People who have deserved happiness have finally found it. Namely I congratulate Dan and Lorraine. I am so thankful that indeed some good has come out of last night. People who have deserved their comeuppance have finally gotten it handed down to them on a mattress. I have been a selfish, disgusting self-centred little bitch who has been too cowardly and pathetic to admit to her true feelings and yes, it is sad that now it has taken for something to happen in order to provoke the cold, hard truth. I don't deserve either Sam, nor Nick and I wouldn't be surprised if they both didn't want me as a friend no longer. I highly doubt Nick is going to want to take me on now that this has happened. And the only way I can think of how to convince him that I truly do care for him is if I pop the question soon because the horrible not-knowing is slowly killing me. I don't want to be confused any further. But yes, I have prepared myself to walk away from both of them if need be.
You want to know how it will be
Me and him and you and me
You both stand there your long hair flowing
Your eyes alive your mind still growing
Saying to me--"What can we do now that we both love you",
I love you too-- I don't really see
Why can't we go on as three
You are afraid--embarrassed too
No one has ever said such a thing to you
Your mother's ghost stands at your shoulder
Face like ice--a little bit colder
Saying to you--"you can not do that, it breaks
All the rules you learned in school"
I don't really see
Why can't we go on as three
We love each other--it's plain to see
There's just one answer comes to me
--Sister--lovers--water brothers
And in time--maybe others
So you see--what we can do--is to try something new--
If you're crazy too--
I don't really see
Why can't we go on as three.
------Jefferson Airplane, 'Triad'