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just want to say something and i know i shouldn't and i know i will regret this but i have counted to 100 and taken deep breathes and come to the conclusion that it is better out than in, so there.
I know that i hardly ever show my feelings to poeple and never let anyone know when i am hurting. Simon will confirm this as he always knows when i am and i still tell him it is not true. But this is one of the things that has held me back in life and i am sick of never changing my life.
Glenn you have totally pissed me off.
yesterday i replyed to chelles lj and told her i was there for her (guess i was just a bit worried about her and she seems really nice, so i thought it would be nice if we could be friends).
Glenn then turns my comment around and makes it about himself - which it definately was not. And he says that unless i agree with him i cannot be his friend - well thanks very much Glenn, guess i really mean alot to you.
However later that afternoon he rings my house to speak to me, so i figure he is actually being mature and he apologises for what he said - nice of him. So we have a huge chat and i tell him directly that i do not what to get involved with this arguement. I know nothing about it and really want to keep them both as friends - realise now that i may sound like a bit of a fence-sitter. But that is how it has to be.
So we keep chatting and he does kind of give me his side of things and admits that he felt really guilty about saying that Matt was considering Katherine, and he asked me to try and make sure chelle was ok because he felt really bad for bringing her into this. Then he talked about Holly for a bit - all very nice and said he really hoped she was feeling ok about the argument because like chelle she had been dragged into it.
I again told him that i didn't want to get involved and that i was going out with Matt and Chelle tonight. He said it was cool.
We continued talking about college and uni and his interview for the navy (which sounds really cool).
So i think to myself.. glad i have sorted things out with Glenn.
But no! on Martin's lj Glenn has totally brought me into the argument even more and twisted our whole telephone conversation, so that it appeares i am completely on his side, against Matt and frankly a bit of a bitch.
Now i just feel totally stupid. I should have guessed Glenn was just using me to gain points against Matt. Why didn't i realise he has no respect for me?
I really hope that Matt and Chelle realise that i have in no way taken Glenn's side and am certainly not againt them. I did not say anything to Glenn that would make him think this.
Sorry Chelle if i have just made things loads worse. Please still come out tonight, because i have been really looking forward to it and it will at least give us a chance to have a good time and forget about this whole thing for a night.
oh and please do not mention me again in thi lj argument.
I know that i hardly ever show my feelings to poeple and never let anyone know when i am hurting. Simon will confirm this as he always knows when i am and i still tell him it is not true. But this is one of the things that has held me back in life and i am sick of never changing my life.
Glenn you have totally pissed me off.
yesterday i replyed to chelles lj and told her i was there for her (guess i was just a bit worried about her and she seems really nice, so i thought it would be nice if we could be friends).
Glenn then turns my comment around and makes it about himself - which it definately was not. And he says that unless i agree with him i cannot be his friend - well thanks very much Glenn, guess i really mean alot to you.
However later that afternoon he rings my house to speak to me, so i figure he is actually being mature and he apologises for what he said - nice of him. So we have a huge chat and i tell him directly that i do not what to get involved with this arguement. I know nothing about it and really want to keep them both as friends - realise now that i may sound like a bit of a fence-sitter. But that is how it has to be.
So we keep chatting and he does kind of give me his side of things and admits that he felt really guilty about saying that Matt was considering Katherine, and he asked me to try and make sure chelle was ok because he felt really bad for bringing her into this. Then he talked about Holly for a bit - all very nice and said he really hoped she was feeling ok about the argument because like chelle she had been dragged into it.
I again told him that i didn't want to get involved and that i was going out with Matt and Chelle tonight. He said it was cool.
We continued talking about college and uni and his interview for the navy (which sounds really cool).
So i think to myself.. glad i have sorted things out with Glenn.
But no! on Martin's lj Glenn has totally brought me into the argument even more and twisted our whole telephone conversation, so that it appeares i am completely on his side, against Matt and frankly a bit of a bitch.
Now i just feel totally stupid. I should have guessed Glenn was just using me to gain points against Matt. Why didn't i realise he has no respect for me?
I really hope that Matt and Chelle realise that i have in no way taken Glenn's side and am certainly not againt them. I did not say anything to Glenn that would make him think this.
Sorry Chelle if i have just made things loads worse. Please still come out tonight, because i have been really looking forward to it and it will at least give us a chance to have a good time and forget about this whole thing for a night.
oh and please do not mention me again in thi lj argument.