erked
so so many good things have been going on in my life but isnt it unny how a ocuple small things mailny one can relaly make u feel like shit? A close friend of mine has basically brushesd me 2 the side cause she has something else and other thriends 2 keep her intrests. I n all honestly it hurts a bunch. I was there when no one else was. I was the one that she said " gabe your such a good friened" and well low annd behold we tend to hurt those that are the best 2 us. i dont understand it. im tired of being brushed aside cause a new boy toy comes into the pic/. doesnt mean she has 2 spend all time with me but DAMN a night or weekend woudl be nice. th eones that we used 2 have fun. One day im not gonna be there when she needs. When i get passedover by close close friends i feel like utter trash and it hurts. Even my mom kinda has diffrent views on her. meh idunno everyone uses me why not my friends. never invited out, never invited 2 partes. never for weddings or celebrations. its only when someone needs something from me.... and then when i do talk aboutmyself she always has some way 2 put a person down or talk negative about whatever i do.... UGH. im pissed and sad. I cant wait to gt out ofucking Minnesota and leave stuff liek this but i guess in all this kinda stuff is everwhere...
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