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GiNnYbAyB143: i'm moving on right now.
GiNnYbAyB143: im' taking down any pictures i have of him
GiNnYbAyB143: and i'm throwing away anything that reminds me of him
JCroxmycleatsoff: dude, thats serious business
JCroxmycleatsoff: taking down the pictures = death
i took them down.
what just happened really hit hard.
GiNnYbAyB143: i think maybe because you're protective over him
GiNnYbAyB143: and sometimes you feel like he just doesn't care about you and your feelings
GiNnYbAyB143: or maybe thats just me! haha
RaErAe438: no your right..like he doesn't give a shit about anything with me..well he does but he doesn't act that way
honestly i can't agree with rae... i just really think he doesn't care. and he just really hurts my feelings. and i'm stupid for not thinking about adam because of him. thats so stupid. what made me think for one minute that something had changed? why did i have to go back.. after every single thing why did i ALWAYS go back? why haven't i progressed in the past FIVE YEARS? i have no option in 4 months.. so why wait that long? why am i gunna be STUCK in this stupid position that hurts me SO much for another PAINFUL 4 months.. i WONT.. because i'm done now. he doesn't care and he probably won't even notice.
toni, i love you so much. thank you for all the talks and cheering up you've done, but now i'm just unbelievably hurt.
GiNnYbAyB143: im' taking down any pictures i have of him
GiNnYbAyB143: and i'm throwing away anything that reminds me of him
JCroxmycleatsoff: dude, thats serious business
JCroxmycleatsoff: taking down the pictures = death
i took them down.
what just happened really hit hard.
GiNnYbAyB143: i think maybe because you're protective over him
GiNnYbAyB143: and sometimes you feel like he just doesn't care about you and your feelings
GiNnYbAyB143: or maybe thats just me! haha
RaErAe438: no your right..like he doesn't give a shit about anything with me..well he does but he doesn't act that way
honestly i can't agree with rae... i just really think he doesn't care. and he just really hurts my feelings. and i'm stupid for not thinking about adam because of him. thats so stupid. what made me think for one minute that something had changed? why did i have to go back.. after every single thing why did i ALWAYS go back? why haven't i progressed in the past FIVE YEARS? i have no option in 4 months.. so why wait that long? why am i gunna be STUCK in this stupid position that hurts me SO much for another PAINFUL 4 months.. i WONT.. because i'm done now. he doesn't care and he probably won't even notice.
toni, i love you so much. thank you for all the talks and cheering up you've done, but now i'm just unbelievably hurt.