0_0; jesus help me please?
oh my god! yesterday was so scary for myself and for those that love me. well i've been on my period and like its been so different, reason why is i've been having blood clogs and they hurt so much, its unexplainably hurtful. well yesterday in the super morning i was severly cramping and like it was like nothing i had every experienced at had been going on for four days, and never let me rest. well finally yesterday it was to its strongest point and i woke up my mom to help me cuz i couldn't move cuz of the pain, then like she noticed i had no color,pailness. she called the ambulance around 4 in the morning, they came for me and took me in the ambulance and my mom went with me, i fainted on the drive. they had two ivy's on me, hurt so bad. we got there and they gave me an antibiotic running through my left arm vains and one on my hand. then they strapped three vacines through my forearm (couldnt move or would stab a different tissue that is uneccesary and dangerous to puncture). i was as white as can be, and a month pregnant, :'[, i was so surprised and scared, then when the doctors and nurses told my mom, she was alright with it because she was more scared about how i would be. later on about two hours later, given all vacines to cure me, my body gave up on me, my mind was on neutral, all i saw was green and white..then i woke up to see docs all around me working as fast as they could. i was interally and externally bleeding, through that, the docs had to work harder to stop the vaginal bleeding, i had more bigger sized blood clogs, which meant i would need a DNC done (operation), i was so scared and in shock, all i could do was think about was how much i would love to be at home where i felt safe, but at that time it was nearly impossible to even think about going home. on the side of all that was going on with me, my potassium and blood pressure was way to high because of the fact that i was losing too much blood. later on did i find out that through all the blood clogs was the fetus, meaning i misscarried, ='[, it was a scary experience. there were 4 nurses cleaning up my blood, 2 of the main docs trying there best to keep me around and my mom and dad... i heard the male doctor call my mom aside and tell her "momma are you and your husband the only ones here with her?" and my mom say "yes sir, porque?" and he said "please call close relatives to come by, she's losing too much blood, she needs a blood transfusion done immediately (meaning i needed some blood inserted in me)" my momma started to cry and my dad turned really red cuz he held his tears in, i could tell. my mom called my tia cookie, tia vicky, grandma, lizzie and david. ='[. i got scared when everyone came cuz i felt like i could see them later, then they told me why, then i unstabalized, they were trying to control me and make me not move cuz i was losing more blood. then i passed out.. woke up with the smell of alcohol. i let david leave for work, he was super worried and scared... i didnt want him to see me. after everyone came and stayed in the lobby. i had an ultrasound done, but instead with the thing that moves apon your belly i got the vagina one done. legs wide, trying to relax, i layed back and cried my eyes out, i thought about how awesome it would be to be painless and thought back at the time when i went to the beach this past summer with my family and my bestfriend, then reality struck and hurt me in the inside, i could feel every organ in my body moving around because of the probe put inside me, in order to examine all my insides. i was removed off the bed and put onto another because the old one was soaked with blood and clogs and the fetus that was once supposed to develop into a baby ='[. i had never seen my family so scared in my life, and i had never been so scared. my mom kept apologizing "ay mija im so sorry i didn't bring you to the hospital earlier, i should've brough you earlier ='[, im sorry" and i was just crying. i told her that im sorry she had to find out me and david were having sex through being in the hospital. now everything is out in the open between me and my mom. it was a near to death experiece, and im damn happy to be home. ='].