hi july.
time really does fly by. i mean im 21, i graduated from FiDM, & i've had all these amazing life experiences, & yet it feels like only yesterday i was graduating hs. well i mean, not really, but almost. especially when i went to my brothers graduation at wilson.. it was so strange cos i remembered so much of what it was like for me to be sitting on that field waiting to go up, get my diploma & be rid of that place for good. it was reallllllly strange to be sitting there watching the graduation.
my own graduation from FiDM was a different story. it was sooooo long & boring.. haha i mean it was fun hanging out w/ all my friends & seeing everyone for what could possibly be the very last time... but it was more like ok let's get this shit over with & get on with our lives. the best part of graduation, honestly, was the fact that it was at staples center! haha & staples center is where kobe works. & we got to have our processional thing starting from where the lakers come out of their locker rooms. that alone was worth waking up crazy early for.
& now im mostly jobless, since my hours at work have been drastically cut =[ (which i hate only cos im so fuckn broke it's not even funny). & i have a ton of free time on my hands with nothing to do. i have had some really good prospects of getting a fulltime job, but a part of me isn't ready for one. sometimes i feel like im sabotaging myself on purpose so i don't get the job. or more like im not trying hard enough. i probably give off this air of "well you can hire me, but if you don't im not gonna care." which isn't a very good attitude to have because it really does show through. oh well. i'll be ready when im ready & for now i just wanna enjoy my summer & have fun.
i wanna go on a vacation! =]