between love and madness is obsession
seems fair. personally i'd go with adoration, obsession sounds creepy. i'm only a little bit obsessed... not in a bad way either, i just want to please her, to love her and hold her and touch her and tease her. such servitude becomes me. i'm still not sure who i am, so i'll throw myself into the safety of this almost familiar role,and define myself through what i do for others. my need for approval knows no bounds, as does my insecurity. paranoia would be thinking everyone's plotting against me. except i KNOW they are, so it's not paranoia. i just can't prove it. maybe if i do more then everyone will not view me with such disgust. i'll try harder. anything to fit in... so nobody will know.