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[g0thx0r]

 i'm all over the place at the minute, some uplifting highs, contrasted by crippling lows. i'm functioning well enough, getting things done, though the need to carve red has uprisen again, after i did so well at repressing it. i wonder if it's a counteractive measure of my subconscious because i've been having happy moments, they don't want me to be happy, and i shouldn't b enjoying these moments of rising mood. but regardless, i hope the good moments continue, there's a lovely person responsible for that, i can only hope she continues to be in my life, just have to wait and see.

nothing much to write, it's hard to gather my thoughts when i'm not at home, too much distracting me.