random
went to the rigger last night, was random fun. nobody there i knew when i got there, but people turned up, kain and alex appeared from nowhere, then i saw mel and paul, and met a bunch of people, who's names escape me. paul asked me about chris, which is odd, so long ago it seems, and nothing ever really happened with him. still, it's interesting to think of him, i miss him, haven't seen him in so long. oh wells.
the rigger closed and i had to spend like 20 mins arguing with marcus about how he shouldn't kill himself :/ it's hard to make a coherant argument when drunk and with scant information. i hate playing this role, but it seems the one i am destined to play, no mateer how or where i am. i try my best.
went to play in the park with kain after, was quite fun, though a little chilly, so we went back to mine to make chips :P nom and played the NES, was incredibly difficult, though in hindsight, this might have just been because we were drunk lol. we watched robot chicken, and i must have passed out because i woke up and it was light and he was gone. so i went back to sleep.
had such odd dreams, at first it was sunny, and i was playing in a giant tank with a dolphin, it was all smiles and handshakes until it tried to dive down with me. i don't think it meant to hurt me, but i was scared because i couldn't breathe? i think.
then the scene changes, but not too much, it was still sunny, but i'm hanging off a balcony talking to this girl lounging along the edge. i'm just shimmying along for particular reason it seems.
then i'm inside the house, and people are talking to me, but i don't understand what they are saying, the mouth forms shapes but all that comes out is wordless noise, or like hearing underwater.
then i see someone familiar. i don't know who he is, but i know him, and i don't like him. and he doesn't like me, he starts pouring gasoline everywhere, and i know he means to burn us all alive. i do everything i can to stop him, i'm beating him black and blue, i'm punching him, i'm swinging guitars at his head, then i'm stabbing him, with every halfway sharp instrument i can lay my hands on, i'm hurting myself as i do this, blood is running down my arms from my hands, but still i can't stop him, he just brushes me off. somehow i prevent him from lighting the gas, and he disappears. and i'm left with people staring blankly at the horrible mess of me.
all of a sudden, i'm at a gig, i've arrived in a blue car with white stripes. on stage i see him oh so familiar, and i feel outrage and hatred. i run onstage and start attacking him. he retreats into his car and i climb in after him. he thinks he is safe in here, but then it turns out this is MY car. he asks "how did you know i would climb into your car?" and i reply "i made them ALL my car". i begin to strangle him, i can feel his windpipe compressed under my hands, i want him to die, such is my hatred. we're speeding along in the car, he's gasping for air, and then i am outside viewing from a distance as the car races off a cliff into the ocean. i know he does not have the air to escape and survive, and i smile, a twisted smile.
i will forget all this soon probably, so that's why i wrote it down. and beccause it is odd, and not at all like my 'normal' dreams. normally, i'm trying to escape something.
anyway, today i think i was supposed to be making music with kain, but he's nowhere to be seen, i think i'll prob have to go rouse him from bed. it's a lovely day out, i should make the most of it.
nevermind, he's here :P
the rigger closed and i had to spend like 20 mins arguing with marcus about how he shouldn't kill himself :/ it's hard to make a coherant argument when drunk and with scant information. i hate playing this role, but it seems the one i am destined to play, no mateer how or where i am. i try my best.
went to play in the park with kain after, was quite fun, though a little chilly, so we went back to mine to make chips :P nom and played the NES, was incredibly difficult, though in hindsight, this might have just been because we were drunk lol. we watched robot chicken, and i must have passed out because i woke up and it was light and he was gone. so i went back to sleep.
had such odd dreams, at first it was sunny, and i was playing in a giant tank with a dolphin, it was all smiles and handshakes until it tried to dive down with me. i don't think it meant to hurt me, but i was scared because i couldn't breathe? i think.
then the scene changes, but not too much, it was still sunny, but i'm hanging off a balcony talking to this girl lounging along the edge. i'm just shimmying along for particular reason it seems.
then i'm inside the house, and people are talking to me, but i don't understand what they are saying, the mouth forms shapes but all that comes out is wordless noise, or like hearing underwater.
then i see someone familiar. i don't know who he is, but i know him, and i don't like him. and he doesn't like me, he starts pouring gasoline everywhere, and i know he means to burn us all alive. i do everything i can to stop him, i'm beating him black and blue, i'm punching him, i'm swinging guitars at his head, then i'm stabbing him, with every halfway sharp instrument i can lay my hands on, i'm hurting myself as i do this, blood is running down my arms from my hands, but still i can't stop him, he just brushes me off. somehow i prevent him from lighting the gas, and he disappears. and i'm left with people staring blankly at the horrible mess of me.
all of a sudden, i'm at a gig, i've arrived in a blue car with white stripes. on stage i see him oh so familiar, and i feel outrage and hatred. i run onstage and start attacking him. he retreats into his car and i climb in after him. he thinks he is safe in here, but then it turns out this is MY car. he asks "how did you know i would climb into your car?" and i reply "i made them ALL my car". i begin to strangle him, i can feel his windpipe compressed under my hands, i want him to die, such is my hatred. we're speeding along in the car, he's gasping for air, and then i am outside viewing from a distance as the car races off a cliff into the ocean. i know he does not have the air to escape and survive, and i smile, a twisted smile.
i will forget all this soon probably, so that's why i wrote it down. and beccause it is odd, and not at all like my 'normal' dreams. normally, i'm trying to escape something.
anyway, today i think i was supposed to be making music with kain, but he's nowhere to be seen, i think i'll prob have to go rouse him from bed. it's a lovely day out, i should make the most of it.
nevermind, he's here :P