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Three weeks after the Ken and I broke up, we finally decided to meet up to exchange Christmas Gifts and to attend our barkada's annual Christmas Party.
Ken and I met up at Cubao and hung out at starbucks gateway. It was unexplainable. I felt my heart pounding and fucking butterflies on my tummy. We hugged, yes. and we held hands. Gahd it felt so good that I got teary eyed for missing that person so much. I just don't want the moment to ever end.
Ken gave me a Starbucks planner in wood
and I gave him a Puma El Rey shoes in Black Vibrant Green.
I was really happy about the planner since I found it impractical to get one. At the same time, it felt good to see how happy Ken was with his new pair of shoes. At first, Ken didn't want to attend the Christmas Party since the both of us weren't together anymore. But yes, I talked him into it.
The whole night I was with him, it felt as if we were still together. He held my hands and hugged me. After the party, we went to my place. We talked. He held me until the morning and before he left I just had to say that "i'm going away for good". I won't ever be able to move on with my life if I can still see him and touch him. It'll just hurt more if we continue pretending to be friends when we act like we are more than that. And it just hurts more because WE ARE NOT TOGETHER ANYMORE.
Before he left, he hugged me and kissed me for one last time. I was happy but I was sad. It hurt like hell, but it had to be done. It hurts I promise and I have never felt this kind of pain ever.
5 years. 5 years of committing yourself to one person. 5 years of being a girlfriend, a best friend, a confidant, a barkada all rolled into one. 5 years that was supposed to last more than that. 5 years may just be a number to everyone else, but to me, it was the best 5 years of my life that I will never ever forget.
Someday, when all is healed, we'll see each other again. As a better person, more mature ones-- as the new Ken and Jona.
Ken and I met up at Cubao and hung out at starbucks gateway. It was unexplainable. I felt my heart pounding and fucking butterflies on my tummy. We hugged, yes. and we held hands. Gahd it felt so good that I got teary eyed for missing that person so much. I just don't want the moment to ever end.
Ken gave me a Starbucks planner in wood
and I gave him a Puma El Rey shoes in Black Vibrant Green.
I was really happy about the planner since I found it impractical to get one. At the same time, it felt good to see how happy Ken was with his new pair of shoes. At first, Ken didn't want to attend the Christmas Party since the both of us weren't together anymore. But yes, I talked him into it.
The whole night I was with him, it felt as if we were still together. He held my hands and hugged me. After the party, we went to my place. We talked. He held me until the morning and before he left I just had to say that "i'm going away for good". I won't ever be able to move on with my life if I can still see him and touch him. It'll just hurt more if we continue pretending to be friends when we act like we are more than that. And it just hurts more because WE ARE NOT TOGETHER ANYMORE.
Before he left, he hugged me and kissed me for one last time. I was happy but I was sad. It hurt like hell, but it had to be done. It hurts I promise and I have never felt this kind of pain ever.
5 years. 5 years of committing yourself to one person. 5 years of being a girlfriend, a best friend, a confidant, a barkada all rolled into one. 5 years that was supposed to last more than that. 5 years may just be a number to everyone else, but to me, it was the best 5 years of my life that I will never ever forget.
Someday, when all is healed, we'll see each other again. As a better person, more mature ones-- as the new Ken and Jona.