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i hate being home.
its lonely here.
jon's already found a new girl.
i dont know why it bothers me so much.
i guess im just territorial.
im pretty miserable here.
the boston trip was ill.
but all i have to do here is stew in my thoughts.
and its not pretty.
if i wanted to kill myself, why should i not do it to keep other people happy.
i never understood that logic.
if youre so unhappy to the point that you want to end it,
it should be your choice.
yeah itll hurt others, but why should you have to keep living with all that pain.
all the medication in the world cant change that.
all they do is numb all your emotions.
but the second theyre gone, the same feelings exist.
therapy is bullshit.
why rehash all the things making you so miserable and bring them to the surface.
and all hat does is make things worse.
lesigh
its lonely here.
jon's already found a new girl.
i dont know why it bothers me so much.
i guess im just territorial.
im pretty miserable here.
the boston trip was ill.
but all i have to do here is stew in my thoughts.
and its not pretty.
if i wanted to kill myself, why should i not do it to keep other people happy.
i never understood that logic.
if youre so unhappy to the point that you want to end it,
it should be your choice.
yeah itll hurt others, but why should you have to keep living with all that pain.
all the medication in the world cant change that.
all they do is numb all your emotions.
but the second theyre gone, the same feelings exist.
therapy is bullshit.
why rehash all the things making you so miserable and bring them to the surface.
and all hat does is make things worse.
lesigh