heres a quick update...

[g00gly_eyes]

Grew up in a small town

Comments

[effin_genius]

didnt blame u...just was sayin how i didnt appreciate being forgotten, thats all..and um, u didnt ask for help..u just told me ur situation, which like i said at the time, i respect..u crossed the line wen u called me a snob..bc thats just not true..n if u think that, maybe u shoulda tried to pay attention more before passin judgment, something i didnt do to u at all in that convo..but like i said, if im just not that important and sooo horrible..then i guess ur better off without our friendship...i hope you can finally be happy now that u dont have to be aggravated anymore..im just sorry it hurt me more than it did you

[g00gly_eyes]

and who ever said u were forgotten?...and as far as crossing the line all i was doing was tellin you the truth...and i wasnt just saying it because of the heat of the moment i rele ment it...becuase youve changed soo much and its seriously not for the better...and pay attention more...and i didnt just pass a judgment...ur the one that passed a judgement..."oh we dont hang out she forgot about me or shes ignoring me" yeah okay...how bout we cant hang out cuz her parents wont let her out of the house...yeah that sounds more realistic to me...soo give up on the whole she forgot me over the summer act...because its not true...and i didnt "appreciate" being ignored the day i saw you before you left for italy...soo thanks....and well to tell ya i wasnt aggrated to begin with...just upset...soo adios

[effin_genius]

thats not passing judgment..but the summer thing, yea over that..thats not wat bothers me at all..like i understand n moved past it..its the fact that u think of me as a snob, that hurts...and if ur using that "night" as the sole reason to back that up, well im sorry..jus wasnt in the best of moods, u no how moods at are age go...but u coulda talked to me about it u no?..i take constructive criticism.cuz first amandas tellin me that u guys think im too neg and the nex day ur tellin me im a snob..i dont understand..i made no personal attacks on u, or ur flaws..so it was just cruel..dont u see?..i mean did it feel right to say that too me?..cuz i wanted to say some nasty stuff to, but didnt..so i dont get it..yea, well u used the word aggravated, not me..but w/e if u dont want to be done, just say the word, n thats it..yea, funny how it could be that easy

[g00gly_eyes]

ohh yeah not passing judgement...and yes it felt quite rite to tell you your acting like a snob ....for lack of a better term...i wasnt goning to hide the fact that thats what i think rite now...im not gonna hide my feelings from you....im not gonna say to myself hey shes being rude or "snobbish" but heyy who cares i wont tell her....umm no im gonna tell you....which ohh yeah i did...and heyy go ahead say some nasty stuff...i really dont care....and if you dont like the truth then maybe you should change it?...

i hope u dont find anything snobbish here (im serious)..cuz i jus wanna understand wat happened here

[effin_genius]

not sure if ur gonna get this but i guess it worth a try...i just kinda thought that maybe as a friend u woulda told me that u didnt like how i was acting in a different way..in a way not simliar to "ur a snob and everyone is saying stuff"..u no?..like that time wen i came and talked to u about wen i thought we were drifting a few months ago...u no?..n i mean i never told you to hide anything, i just didnt figure u could be so mean like that...i mean everyone changes and if its for the worse then as a friend, u should def tell them about it..n im tryin to see wat u see and im gonna fix it any way i can...but u didnt have to say it like that..n im not gonna say stuff about u, cuz im not like that...yea, i think there are things about u that u could look at and maybe not like so much...but i wont be like u and make u feel like shit.. (not meant with any anger..im not angrry, thruout this whole letter..or now)..but i dont understand how u could say that..and not be bothered by the fact that things arent getting any better with us...but

Re: i hope u dont find anything snobbish here (im serious)..cuz i jus wanna understand wat happened

[effin_genius]

i didnt mean heartless..u'll prob take that the wrong way..i meant comments that dont really say anything..no answers to questions, no helpin me to understand, n if thats the pt ur tryin to get at, then dont bother commenting?... they just get meaner and meaner, and all i want is to no wats goin on

Re: i hope u dont find anything snobbish here (im serious)..cuz i jus wanna understand wat happened

[g00gly_eyes]

you know i love how when i first imed you all i said was listen we have to talk not here or rite now but we just have to talk...and all you did was flipp out and whatnot...i tried to do it in a civil way but you just started in this sarcastic manner...like yes i know we are both sarcastic but heyy there are places and times to be that....and when your upset thats one time not to be sarcastic, and when your online and upset at the same time yeah not the time and or the place to be sarcastic...now we both made the mistake of being sarcastic...but you knew i didnt want to do that online...but how was i suppose to tell you come on i couldnt just say it over the summer when we were hanging out in the group come on you would have flipped out and not talked to me then...and soo thats what i wanted to tell you...in a nicer way of course...when we talked in person and not soo sarcastically...but you never even gave me that chance...and you know i want to "fix" my mistakes to...soo if u dont point them out nobody else seems to either...soo how

Re: and i hope you dont find ne thing wrong in this...

[g00gly_eyes]

cuz its something to think about...

if you flipped out on me when i tried to get answers for myself and give you answers...in a civilized manner...and you flipped out...what makes you think i want to waste my time and breath to try and fix things again?

Re: i hope u dont find anything snobbish here (im serious)..cuz i jus wanna understand wat happened

[effin_genius]

yea my mistake..i was wrong i no..but i JUST read ur comment and i was really upset..i no u couldnt have told me over the summer, we didnt exactly talk remember (not blaming ONLY u for that..)...we didnt have to do ANYTHING online..if it was really wat u wanted u coulda NOT called me a snob and left..woulda worked..u cant say i never gave u a chance, cuz i havent FORCED u to not talk to me, and u never TRIED to talk ...but im not pointing out anything about u bc i didnt want to do that while we werent exactly on good terms, something maybe u shoulda taken into consideration..cuz if i said something now u no things would get alot worse..n if it comes to the pt where we're friends, yea we'll talk about it..but i'll try n do it in a way where it wont hurt you

wat do u say we forgive and (instead of forget, ..learn )? unless "this" is wat u want

Re: i hope u dont find anything snobbish here (im serious)..cuz i jus wanna understand wat happened

[g00gly_eyes]

heyy forgive and learn sounds great to me...thats all i wanted to begin with...i know the summer sucked but i rele had no control over it...and i have a few ideas as to what i have to work on...but i also know snob wasnt the rite word but it was the only one that came to me at the time...but you deff have changed and idk for some reason you seem soo ugh idk the word [but insert not so snobbish word here lol]!!!and i guess so have i and we're both not use to the "new us" but sooner or latter wel either be back to our old selves or just learned to accept our new selves but i think im gonna im u now soo wel continue there...