A LONG WALK HOME
TODAY WAS SPECIAL. I GOT TO COME TO SCHOOL IN MY PJ'S AND I EXPERIENCED MY FIRST MOST RACIST EVEN IN MY LIFE. I WALKED INTO RALPHS THIS MORNING AND I HAD ON MY PJS MY BACKPACK AND DUFFEL BAG. AND SO HE IMMEDIATLY WALKED OVER AND TELLS ME TO PLACE MY BAG AND MY BACKPACK OVER AT THE SECURITY DESK AT THE FRONT. SO I DID SO. AND I WASNT MAD ABOUT THAT BECUZ IF I WAS HIM ID DO THE SAME BUT WHAT PISSED ME OFF WAS THAT I WAS WEARING PJ'S AND A THIN NIKE JACKET AND SUM SLIPERS. AND I WALKED OVER TO THE CAKE ISLE TO GET MORE FROSTING CUZ I RAN OUT LAST NIGHT AND THE SECURITY GUARD WATCHED ME THE ENTIRE WAY TO THE ISLE TO GET THE STUFF HE WATCHED ME AS I GOT IN LINE, AND HE WATCHED ME AS I PAYED FOR IT AND STILL WATCHED ME AS I PICKED UP MY STUFF AND LEFT. AND I JUST WANTED TO TURN AROUND AND ASK HIM WTF HE WAS LOOKING AT AND TO STOP HARASSING ME. AND TO MAKE MATTERS WORSE A MAN WALKS INTO THE STORE WITH A BIG BAGGY JACKET, AND DIRTY AS HELL, HE LOOKED MORE LIKELY TO STEAL THAN I DID. AND I WAS IN SUM FUCKIN PJ'S WTF COULD I EVEN STEAL. BUT YEAH IT WAS TOO EARLY TO ARGUE WITH THOSE IGNORANT PPL SO I JUST LEFT. WELL I DONT THINK ILL BE GOIN BACK OVER THERE ANYTIME SOON. THOSE FUCKERS. WELL OTHER THAN THAT SCHOOL WAS PRETTY EASY. HAD NUTHIN TO DO IN ANY OF MY CLASSES. BUT IM PRETTY FUCKED IN FRECH CLASS WHEN IT COMES TO GRADES. BUT YEAH I REALLY DONT CARE. AND AT LUNCH I GAVE A BUNCH OF PPL THESE CINAMIN SQUARE THINGS THAT I BAKED. AND I GOT TO HAVE A LONG TALK WIT RACHEL AND CANDACE(NOT THE ONES IN THE ACADEMY) DURING 5TH PERIOD. SUM MORE SHADY SHIT HAS HAPPENED THAT CANDACE'S EX BOYFRIEND DID BUT SHE CAN HANDLE HERSELF. BUT AT PASSING PERIOD BE4 5TH PERIOD I SAW.......AND........HUGGED ME AND I GOT A..........FROM..............WHICH MADE ME VERY FUCKING HAPPY. LOL AND THEN IN 5TH PERIOD I SAT AND TALKED TO CANDACE AND RACHEL AND THEY THINK IM HOOKED. I DEFINATLY NOT HOOKED BUT IT FELT GOOD TO ACCUALLY BE NOTICED. AT TIMES BE4 I FELT LIKE I WAS JUST A PASSER BY OR JUST SUMONE ANOYING SO I STOPPED BEING AROUND SO MUCH AND NOW EVERYTIME I PASS BY ITS LIKE I GET A HUG AND EACH TIME IS LONGER AND LONGER AND LONGER. AND IT FEELS SO FUCKING GREAT. I DONT FEEL LIKE A PASSER BY ANYMORE AMD I AS A FRIEND ACCUALY FEEL LIKE IM BEING ACKNOWLEDGED MORE. ITS FUNNY HOW THINGS WORK OUT. IN OTHER NEWS PHEADRA BABE I LUV YA LOTS!! I HOPE YOU LUV THE CAKE. IM SRY THAT IT CAME SO LATE AND I DEEPLY APOLOGIZE IT ISNT EXACTLY WHAT YOU WANTED.PERFECTION DESERVES PERFECTION. ILL MAKE YOU ANOTHER ONE LATER ON IN THE YEAR BABE TO MAKE UP FOR THIS ONE. AND ID LIKE TO SAY THAT YOU ARE A GREAT FRIEND AND HAVE ONE OF THE BEST SMILES IVE EVER SEEN. THANK YOU AGAIN SO MUCH FOR MY CHRISTMAS GIFT AND I LITERALLY ATE IT WITH PURE HAPPINESS.OMG!!! LAST NIGHT I HAD A NIGHTMARE. I LOOKED INTO THE LIGHT OF A HALL AND SAW SUMONE STANDING THERE. AND IN THE DREAM I CLOSED MY EYES AND WHEN THEY OPENED I WAS IN THE DRESSING ROOM OF THE FROST LOOKING DOWN THAT HALL AND THERE WAS THAT SAME SUMONE STANDING ON THE OTHER SIDE. SO AS I WALKED THEY WALKED TOWARDS ME AND WHEN AS THE LIGHT BEGAN TO FOCUS AND THE BLURRED SIGHT BEGAN TO BECOME CLEAR I WOKE UP. I NEVER SAW THE FACE. FUCKING SCARY.