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Okay been a while since I had a heart to heart with my journal.....
Let's see. My life is a bit of a shit show, let me tell you...
Tonight high on LSD, or whatever chemical that was, I jumped the fence at the cemetery and danced on my father's grave to some amazing house music. A tune I know well....
Can't find my pink crystal ball. Neurotic of me, I know. But, I have a certain attachment to my crystals and their power. Get that from my Mom.
I lost my job at Darigold....I truly hated that place. I worked my summer away doing grave yard shift, and I don't have anything to show for it.
I have a herniated L5S1 disc. My back is shot from eight years of painting. I look at my thousands of dollars worth of tools and go...Fuck do I want to sell it back to these assholes that worked me to this point. I loathe the irony.
My friend Aili has work potential out in North Dakota on the Bakken Shale oil fields. She has a couch I can sleep on. I think kicking it with my friends Aric and Lost in Fort Collins is a better idea.
Everything is pointing me to move to Colorado. Kinda funny that I knew I would end up in Colorado back in my room in Vietnam. Destiny, maybe.?..It's Colorado.
I can't help but think about Erin every damn day. She is in another direction and her own life is a bit of mess from being with David. In the heart of being mindful, I best let that rest. However, this girl is never far from my mind and my soul wants to be closer to her. There's a magic power in her's and I relationship that I can't ignore.
God is still not done with me. I've thought about killing myself a few times. I think it was a blessing in disguise that my storage unit was robbed while I was in Asia. I'd probably have killed myself back in December. Definitely worse than, than I am now.
Regardless of the bullshit. I have hope. And, I will turn this into elegance.
Let's see. My life is a bit of a shit show, let me tell you...
Tonight high on LSD, or whatever chemical that was, I jumped the fence at the cemetery and danced on my father's grave to some amazing house music. A tune I know well....
Can't find my pink crystal ball. Neurotic of me, I know. But, I have a certain attachment to my crystals and their power. Get that from my Mom.
I lost my job at Darigold....I truly hated that place. I worked my summer away doing grave yard shift, and I don't have anything to show for it.
I have a herniated L5S1 disc. My back is shot from eight years of painting. I look at my thousands of dollars worth of tools and go...Fuck do I want to sell it back to these assholes that worked me to this point. I loathe the irony.
My friend Aili has work potential out in North Dakota on the Bakken Shale oil fields. She has a couch I can sleep on. I think kicking it with my friends Aric and Lost in Fort Collins is a better idea.
Everything is pointing me to move to Colorado. Kinda funny that I knew I would end up in Colorado back in my room in Vietnam. Destiny, maybe.?..It's Colorado.
I can't help but think about Erin every damn day. She is in another direction and her own life is a bit of mess from being with David. In the heart of being mindful, I best let that rest. However, this girl is never far from my mind and my soul wants to be closer to her. There's a magic power in her's and I relationship that I can't ignore.
God is still not done with me. I've thought about killing myself a few times. I think it was a blessing in disguise that my storage unit was robbed while I was in Asia. I'd probably have killed myself back in December. Definitely worse than, than I am now.
Regardless of the bullshit. I have hope. And, I will turn this into elegance.