Mar 10, 2006 20:20
You really will never get it.
I don't know why you think it's so necessary to lie to yourself. You can't see the world through a mirror. You promised you'd never do the stuff you're doing..and you're doing it..all of it..look at you..look at me.
Can't you see that I love you? I don't want this to happen. I said what I meant, regardless of what you want to deny now of how much you meant.
When you talk, I listen. I don't know why, but I do. It's hard for me to live my life now, knowing that things aren't okay.
I don't think our lives need to be in sync with each other. But I need to know that you're okay. And you're not. I hear you already "I'm fine. I'm happy." ....don't insult me, I know you.
I want to hold your hand, so bad, I do. But this is your battle. A battle you don't even see. And one of these days the sun will rise and you'll see me on the horizon, it will make sense to you then..but for now, I may as well be your dust in the wind.
This is the second time in my life, that I have had to say I lost my best friend. And frankly, it stings like hell. I'm always going to feel with you me. I always thought it'd be me+you in the end. But this is the end. And we're not even close to being us, let alone ourselves.
i can't stand this. i can't stand it.