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I'm in the middle of packing but I had to take a break.. I packed up my movies and purses and the rest of my pictures, and my room still looks like I'm not moving..lol. Probably b/c I'm not taking much with me, I have no use for most of the stuff. One thing I want is that ring back that michael took back to the mall. (the promise-i'll-marry-you-ring). Probably b/c he broke the promise he said he never would and, I don't wanna think about that anymore. I wish nothing had ever happened. But today..I guess he's ignoring me again, it's his way of saying he doesn't need me. So, I need to get away. I'm waiting for a phone call now :-\
People take forever to wake up..I get up too early now (unless i'm drinking the night before).. LAST NIGHT i HAD the stupidest DrEaM eVeRrRrRr..UGHHHhhhhhHhhHhhH...i knew it was gonna happen, b/c I keep having dreams about mike, stupid ass dreams or just bad dreams. Well last night, he was a freakin' mental case. We were in some pool or whatever at a school and had to go into the showers after..and I was taking a shower and he starts text-msging me in the shower saying how he only wants to have sex with me and then I can go to Florida. I'm like "R-u-fuckin'-kidding-me" and he's like "No, Can't you see what this is about? I don't love you" and then he sent me like..this music video thing through my phone of these two people getting married and he's like "That will nvr be us. This isn't a fairytale. I don't want 2b w/u 4ever, you know what i'm in it for. I won't even talk to you tomorrow, watch me". And for some reason, some big guy spotted Mike in the shower and grabbed him by the throat and screamed something at him..and then, we were all in an attic somewhere..and Mike looked psychotic..his eyes were like, on fire or something and he was with this girl..and she was bleeding. Apparently he just raped her or something.. And the bloody girl was like "if it's meant to be, it will be..if he loved u, you would know it" and then she started crying.. and I'm like "WHAT is this?" And then I woke up outta nowhere..and I was like..sweating like crazy..and I text-msged mike and told him i wanted to marry him. I do, I wanna be with him forever. But he ignored me..surprise, surprise..and then i got online and he ignored me..and had a cute lil away msg on saying "No"..probably as in "don't talk to me".
So maybe dreams come true.
From here on out, I'm doing what I want again..we'll just erase yesterday's events from the memory..