GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!
I can't do anything. I can't do anything. I can't do anything.
Fucking quitting smoking sucks. I am edgy, I am shaking, and I want to smoke, i want to listen to music I want to do something to keep myself occupied.
Today was fine. I actually was doing really well. I hung out with colin, we had food, we played DDR2MAX with the action pad things for like 4 hours or so. I didnt need to smoke. I didnt want to smoke.
But now, its all changed. I am shaking, I want a cigarette. I can't have one.. I won't give in to it. But everything around me that I use to calm myself down... outlawed too.. I cant go hang with Ashley and her crew cuz i might party too hard. I can't play this damned CD cuz its annoying Lizz, and I can't go for a walk because I will gnaw off my arm. I think I am just going to go lie down, and try to breath before I go criminally insane. I am trying not to be a pain about this, but getting double teamed by Lizz and Colin as to what I should and should not do is going to make me crazy. I don't appreciate thaty at all. But its cool. I am probably just overly irratable right now.
I need to go lie down. Hopefully Lizz will read this and come hold me for a little while.
Bye.
Fucking quitting smoking sucks. I am edgy, I am shaking, and I want to smoke, i want to listen to music I want to do something to keep myself occupied.
Today was fine. I actually was doing really well. I hung out with colin, we had food, we played DDR2MAX with the action pad things for like 4 hours or so. I didnt need to smoke. I didnt want to smoke.
But now, its all changed. I am shaking, I want a cigarette. I can't have one.. I won't give in to it. But everything around me that I use to calm myself down... outlawed too.. I cant go hang with Ashley and her crew cuz i might party too hard. I can't play this damned CD cuz its annoying Lizz, and I can't go for a walk because I will gnaw off my arm. I think I am just going to go lie down, and try to breath before I go criminally insane. I am trying not to be a pain about this, but getting double teamed by Lizz and Colin as to what I should and should not do is going to make me crazy. I don't appreciate thaty at all. But its cool. I am probably just overly irratable right now.
I need to go lie down. Hopefully Lizz will read this and come hold me for a little while.
Bye.