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yoo it juss HURTS sooo fuckin much knowin that ur givin ur all to someone n they're not even givin u a quarter of what u give back!!!!! i know its all mah fault for even stickin around this long but its sooo fuckin hard to let go of someone or something u like so much!! i guess i'm juss afraid that if i do loose it i'm never gonna get it back. i don even know. its juss like...i'm so used to the same shyt happening all the time that i'm like w/e its inevitable n its juss gonna happen again as usual n then everything is gonna go back to normal. but this time its different. i juss cant take all the lying n playin games wit me. i juss want someone to be straight up wit me n not fuck around cuz thats not what i'm about. seriously...if mah all isnt good enough then i really don know what to fuckin do or tell u. i did the best i could to try to be what u wanted n it worked for awhile but i guess shyts juss changed. ur fuckin bored n ova me i guess! w/e! i don know what u want ne more n i'm startin to really not care. like i could really care less what mah friends have to say cuz they're NOT me n they don know how i feel!! yea granted i'll listen but it doesnt mean imma do what they say or w/e. i'm gonna do me regardless. but ughh...i'm so tired n ova the games. its juss not worth me being unhappy n stressin bout this shyt ne more. it really isnt. so many times i've tried to not go back n have to go thru the same shyt but i'm fuckin dumb n i do. i juss do this shyt to mahself n i don know y. i hate it! but w/e yo...if its meant to be (mostlikely NOT) then what should happen will happen...if not oo well. i'll be really upset but i'll get ova it juss like i do wit everything else after some time. but i'm gonna go cuz i'm so fuckin upset rite now...pe@ce.
keisha
keisha