Yes, still here
After my long hiatus, I am finally back in the world of the living. Battling depression and basic social anxiety every step of the way. I have pretty much succeeded in alienating all my friends, though breaking off ties with some "pseudo"friends that just made me feel worse. Now working on getting back in touch with those who are my real friends. Which amounts to about 2 people, but that's fine with me.
Cord and I have been trying to get pregnant with #2 child for 15 months now. I feel like I am ovulating, but none of my tests come back saying I did. Last one I had was in December '04. I really felt I was pregnant that month, but there was no positive PG test. And I saw AF on New Year's Eve. Starting with that cycle, each one has been increasingly heavy and painful. The last 2 have been so bad on the first day that I was doubled over in pain and had to lie down until the pain finally subsided via ibuprofen. Now, a couple days ago while getting "intimate" Cord barely touched me and I felt like someone had taken a battering ram to my uterus. It brought me to tears. So, I called and made an appointment with the fertility clinic in La Crosse at Gundersen Clinic. I already had an appointment for a consultation for Cord & I, but not until September 23rd. So, I went in and the nurse did a pelvic exam. She took down a history and the symptoms,and she is pretty positive that I have endometriosis. For anyone who doesn't know what that is, basically the same kind of tissue-the "endometrium"-that is inside the uterus gets on the outside of the uterus and on all the internal organs. It reacts the same way as the inside of the uterus does during AF each month, and the tissue attaches itself and bleeds. The problem is, the blood has no where to go. So it irritates the organ it's attached to and messes up the hormones and the basic function of the organs. The only way to verify for sure that you have this condition is to have exploratory surgery done. A small slit is made in the abdomen and a tiny camera is inserted into the abdominal cavity and they see if there are any sores on your organs. If so, they will laser them off then and there. Sometimes there is also scar tissue, and they can take that out also. it is thought that some of the endo is blocking the eggs from entering my fallopian tube and that's why I can't get pregnant. Most women who have the surgery done can get pregnant a short time after. Getting pregnant right away helps heal the endo as it shuts down the ovaries for 9 months. I am looking into Traditional Chinese Medicine in case I don't get pregnant right away, and after I have the next baby. I believe there is someone in Winona. I will give them a call to verify they follow those practices. I don't want to be pumped full of hormones in order to heal the endo.
That's about it for now. It's all that's on my mind, anyway.
Cord and I have been trying to get pregnant with #2 child for 15 months now. I feel like I am ovulating, but none of my tests come back saying I did. Last one I had was in December '04. I really felt I was pregnant that month, but there was no positive PG test. And I saw AF on New Year's Eve. Starting with that cycle, each one has been increasingly heavy and painful. The last 2 have been so bad on the first day that I was doubled over in pain and had to lie down until the pain finally subsided via ibuprofen. Now, a couple days ago while getting "intimate" Cord barely touched me and I felt like someone had taken a battering ram to my uterus. It brought me to tears. So, I called and made an appointment with the fertility clinic in La Crosse at Gundersen Clinic. I already had an appointment for a consultation for Cord & I, but not until September 23rd. So, I went in and the nurse did a pelvic exam. She took down a history and the symptoms,and she is pretty positive that I have endometriosis. For anyone who doesn't know what that is, basically the same kind of tissue-the "endometrium"-that is inside the uterus gets on the outside of the uterus and on all the internal organs. It reacts the same way as the inside of the uterus does during AF each month, and the tissue attaches itself and bleeds. The problem is, the blood has no where to go. So it irritates the organ it's attached to and messes up the hormones and the basic function of the organs. The only way to verify for sure that you have this condition is to have exploratory surgery done. A small slit is made in the abdomen and a tiny camera is inserted into the abdominal cavity and they see if there are any sores on your organs. If so, they will laser them off then and there. Sometimes there is also scar tissue, and they can take that out also. it is thought that some of the endo is blocking the eggs from entering my fallopian tube and that's why I can't get pregnant. Most women who have the surgery done can get pregnant a short time after. Getting pregnant right away helps heal the endo as it shuts down the ovaries for 9 months. I am looking into Traditional Chinese Medicine in case I don't get pregnant right away, and after I have the next baby. I believe there is someone in Winona. I will give them a call to verify they follow those practices. I don't want to be pumped full of hormones in order to heal the endo.
That's about it for now. It's all that's on my mind, anyway.