OOo i'm crazy bout ya..
gosh i feel so overwhelmed with emotions.. good and bad. maybe it's my mood swings but i dont know. i cant even say if they are or not.
well, friday i woke up at 7 to call up peeps and then me and marshy went to shoot around for a bit at calle. then headed to kohls to pick up his paycheck. my first visit there! of course i shopped a bit thanks marshy. then we went to jack in the crack so we can get this fat ass some food. then headed to huntington beach. we got there around 11 met up with alan, mark, jeremy, chris and erica. they left around 12 or and me and marshy chilled.. tried to get a tan on my ass..but it didnt necessarily work. we checked out the us open in surfing it was cool.. we left around 245 and got back around 415 or so. then josh picked me up around 430 and we headed to the mills to watch american wedding. eh i thought itd be so much more funnier.. but it was alright some highlights here and there. well after we hit up the mall and walked around. baby got a nice green shirt that i picked out and of course it looks hot. then he ate bc i felt a lil sick after my white chocolate oreo. afterwards we went to english springs park and chilled.. it was an odd ending. and i didnt end up going to the boogie with the posse. kinda sad but oh well, my time was well spent. well he took me home i hopped in the shower and then went online for like a bit. got off around 1030 and went to bed feeling a lil left behind and irritated. then the nucca decides to wake my ass up and we talked for a lil bit. i got up at 645 got ready and hung out before mother took me to class. me and trong were just chillin the whole day, but it felt damn long..it was cool tho when its with him. well then brudder picked me up and then we headed to the donut ave and got some food and brought it home to eat. nick knack was over so that was cool. then i changed, joshua picked me up and we went to marshy's for the bbq. so here starts the fun.. sarcasm damn it. well i got there.. no shots for me. kinda didnt feel like doing anything. i got really really irritated thru the night and super annoyed with things.by 945 or so had to take freakin josh to work so he could turn off the lights. i can really say shit just went down. i didnt have fun at all last nite and it was super shits. i felt nothing in a way. but in a way i felt hurt, alone, worried, scared, irritated, annoyed and just bleh all together. i didnt want to talk about it all, but i guess i had to.
i dont know what's going on but it's just weird..not normal. i guess i'm thinking twice about things..nothing in particular but just in general. getting thoughts. and i know in a sense it's bad. but the past week or so me and marshy have been totally connecting on this relationship deal. we both feel the same thing and think the same way nearly. so him and stacey broke up. it hurts him i know it, but really, i think he deserves so much more. ive seen how she talks to him and how she can get really immature. she doesnt understand what its like to have someone cheat on you.. and take you back..well i dont know her that well, but if she does know how it feels why does she keep hurting him the way she does? i just dont understand i know it's not my business but he's my bud and no one deserves that mess. you should totally be grateful and understanding of the situation rather then be abrupt to being frustrated. what happens if they did that ish back to you.. how would you feel? well hope things work out. i'm always here.. and we totally relate so dont be scared to hit me up.
anyways ....next! kay so today, sunday, i woke up at 9 and of course knowing that this foo works on sundays. i get up to chat with him on the net. weird convo. kinda sentimental. erica wakes up at 1230 and we get ready to go. this guy said f*** u and we offer to get him food what the f is that? sorry fucker..just trying to be nice, shit. so we go to the bank to pull out money that i dont have and get us food. we went to in n out and that ish took forever. went to grand and drop that ish off for the fuckface and jet. we got to st. paul and watched the game. i met some new guys, team mates of marshy. then after being neglected and stuff.. haha.. jk. just wanted to spend more time with you.. sad face..i decided to skip church (i know bad.. i've been doing so good on going too.) i just wasnt up for it. thats my fault. not a valid reason i know! well i went home with frandy and we're drinking right now. i wonder what he's doing in the other room right now. DIRTY!! jk. well yah.. i guess i'll hit this up lata..
well, friday i woke up at 7 to call up peeps and then me and marshy went to shoot around for a bit at calle. then headed to kohls to pick up his paycheck. my first visit there! of course i shopped a bit thanks marshy. then we went to jack in the crack so we can get this fat ass some food. then headed to huntington beach. we got there around 11 met up with alan, mark, jeremy, chris and erica. they left around 12 or and me and marshy chilled.. tried to get a tan on my ass..but it didnt necessarily work. we checked out the us open in surfing it was cool.. we left around 245 and got back around 415 or so. then josh picked me up around 430 and we headed to the mills to watch american wedding. eh i thought itd be so much more funnier.. but it was alright some highlights here and there. well after we hit up the mall and walked around. baby got a nice green shirt that i picked out and of course it looks hot. then he ate bc i felt a lil sick after my white chocolate oreo. afterwards we went to english springs park and chilled.. it was an odd ending. and i didnt end up going to the boogie with the posse. kinda sad but oh well, my time was well spent. well he took me home i hopped in the shower and then went online for like a bit. got off around 1030 and went to bed feeling a lil left behind and irritated. then the nucca decides to wake my ass up and we talked for a lil bit. i got up at 645 got ready and hung out before mother took me to class. me and trong were just chillin the whole day, but it felt damn long..it was cool tho when its with him. well then brudder picked me up and then we headed to the donut ave and got some food and brought it home to eat. nick knack was over so that was cool. then i changed, joshua picked me up and we went to marshy's for the bbq. so here starts the fun.. sarcasm damn it. well i got there.. no shots for me. kinda didnt feel like doing anything. i got really really irritated thru the night and super annoyed with things.by 945 or so had to take freakin josh to work so he could turn off the lights. i can really say shit just went down. i didnt have fun at all last nite and it was super shits. i felt nothing in a way. but in a way i felt hurt, alone, worried, scared, irritated, annoyed and just bleh all together. i didnt want to talk about it all, but i guess i had to.
i dont know what's going on but it's just weird..not normal. i guess i'm thinking twice about things..nothing in particular but just in general. getting thoughts. and i know in a sense it's bad. but the past week or so me and marshy have been totally connecting on this relationship deal. we both feel the same thing and think the same way nearly. so him and stacey broke up. it hurts him i know it, but really, i think he deserves so much more. ive seen how she talks to him and how she can get really immature. she doesnt understand what its like to have someone cheat on you.. and take you back..well i dont know her that well, but if she does know how it feels why does she keep hurting him the way she does? i just dont understand i know it's not my business but he's my bud and no one deserves that mess. you should totally be grateful and understanding of the situation rather then be abrupt to being frustrated. what happens if they did that ish back to you.. how would you feel? well hope things work out. i'm always here.. and we totally relate so dont be scared to hit me up.
anyways ....next! kay so today, sunday, i woke up at 9 and of course knowing that this foo works on sundays. i get up to chat with him on the net. weird convo. kinda sentimental. erica wakes up at 1230 and we get ready to go. this guy said f*** u and we offer to get him food what the f is that? sorry fucker..just trying to be nice, shit. so we go to the bank to pull out money that i dont have and get us food. we went to in n out and that ish took forever. went to grand and drop that ish off for the fuckface and jet. we got to st. paul and watched the game. i met some new guys, team mates of marshy. then after being neglected and stuff.. haha.. jk. just wanted to spend more time with you.. sad face..i decided to skip church (i know bad.. i've been doing so good on going too.) i just wasnt up for it. thats my fault. not a valid reason i know! well i went home with frandy and we're drinking right now. i wonder what he's doing in the other room right now. DIRTY!! jk. well yah.. i guess i'll hit this up lata..