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well me and nic came home for the weekend and it was a last minute thing on my part. some plans kinda fell thru. poo :( oh well i got to talk to poo bear until 330 or so this morning. i miss that.it was a nice comforting feeling. went to bed super happy. pplz were sad to hear me go for the weekend. i missed out partying with them. saw some girls get fucked up last nite. i hope i dont get too wild out there. things have changed though so i'm good. but that always seems to be the case. why do i pass it up? who the hell knows. it's just not the same. i guess i'm trying to focus on school more since it just started. need to manage my time and i guess partying isnt headin the top of the list. its ok once i get really settled, i'll have time for that hopefully. so far it's just been school and work..and my bo0ger. thinking about going for a sorority. rush week starts next week. what to do? i wanna do it, but i dont know dont really want to fall into conformity of a selected group you know? i wanna be involved in school though that's why i'm looking into clubs and stuff. i dont want it to be based on pure acadmics. want to be able to be interested in school. anywho, classes are whatever. so hard to wake up for class at 8. im adjusting to the days as they come but sometimes i feel like i'm not making the rite choices. relationship wise: OoOo what can i say? i know for the past couple of days. i've deal with so much of guys shit that it's not even funny. get it thru ur head. I HAVE A BOYFRIEND! dont u see my pics? by my bed? by my computer? u dont seem to care. it's disrespectful how you bring it about. he's my poo bear that i talk about all the time. he's my beb that i say i miss every second. i dont get any texts except for his. GrR this is really hard. i wish i could have him anytime i wanted. to cuddle, to talk to, to cry to, to take my shit out on, to find comfort, but it just doesnt always work out that way. u know i've been thinking a lot about our future and how far it will go. i hope in one way or another it turns out the way i'm dreamin of. on other hands. separation. my parents are being separated. how do i live with that. how do i handle that? espcially knowing that my dad will be off on his own at his age. my sister wants to ask him to move in with her. of course he'll reject the offer. that's how he's always been, stubborn. i'm scared for him. altho i dont talk to him, i miss him. it was nice seeing him today. i feel like i have so much crap going on and i dont know what to do. i never thought it would come down to this, but i'm really scared. i'm really worried about it will turn out. my daddy's getting old. on top of that. me and the girls are worrying about sheley. it's her birthday on monday. and she's really having rough times. she lost a close friend of hers and has been really takin it hard. secluding herself and isolating herself bc she's hurt. we can honestly say that we are sincerely sorry for the loss and that we'll always be here for you. we love you despite whatevers happened and our prayers are with you. well i'm about to head out and meet up janine and nic to head over to shel's in a bit and hit up cecil's great hotel bash.. we all know how he throws dem parties.. ;)smell ya later.. take care..
well me and nic came home for the weekend and it was a last minute thing on my part. some plans kinda fell thru. poo :( oh well i got to talk to poo bear until 330 or so this morning. i miss that.it was a nice comforting feeling. went to bed super happy. pplz were sad to hear me go for the weekend. i missed out partying with them. saw some girls get fucked up last nite. i hope i dont get too wild out there. things have changed though so i'm good. but that always seems to be the case. why do i pass it up? who the hell knows. it's just not the same. i guess i'm trying to focus on school more since it just started. need to manage my time and i guess partying isnt headin the top of the list. its ok once i get really settled, i'll have time for that hopefully. so far it's just been school and work..and my bo0ger. thinking about going for a sorority. rush week starts next week. what to do? i wanna do it, but i dont know dont really want to fall into conformity of a selected group you know? i wanna be involved in school though that's why i'm looking into clubs and stuff. i dont want it to be based on pure acadmics. want to be able to be interested in school. anywho, classes are whatever. so hard to wake up for class at 8. im adjusting to the days as they come but sometimes i feel like i'm not making the rite choices. relationship wise: OoOo what can i say? i know for the past couple of days. i've deal with so much of guys shit that it's not even funny. get it thru ur head. I HAVE A BOYFRIEND! dont u see my pics? by my bed? by my computer? u dont seem to care. it's disrespectful how you bring it about. he's my poo bear that i talk about all the time. he's my beb that i say i miss every second. i dont get any texts except for his. GrR this is really hard. i wish i could have him anytime i wanted. to cuddle, to talk to, to cry to, to take my shit out on, to find comfort, but it just doesnt always work out that way. u know i've been thinking a lot about our future and how far it will go. i hope in one way or another it turns out the way i'm dreamin of. on other hands. separation. my parents are being separated. how do i live with that. how do i handle that? espcially knowing that my dad will be off on his own at his age. my sister wants to ask him to move in with her. of course he'll reject the offer. that's how he's always been, stubborn. i'm scared for him. altho i dont talk to him, i miss him. it was nice seeing him today. i feel like i have so much crap going on and i dont know what to do. i never thought it would come down to this, but i'm really scared. i'm really worried about it will turn out. my daddy's getting old. on top of that. me and the girls are worrying about sheley. it's her birthday on monday. and she's really having rough times. she lost a close friend of hers and has been really takin it hard. secluding herself and isolating herself bc she's hurt. we can honestly say that we are sincerely sorry for the loss and that we'll always be here for you. we love you despite whatevers happened and our prayers are with you. well i'm about to head out and meet up janine and nic to head over to shel's in a bit and hit up cecil's great hotel bash.. we all know how he throws dem parties.. ;)smell ya later.. take care..