*thoughs on studying abroad*
I'm seriously considering just studying abroad next fall... I'm going crazy... on the other hand I might go more crazy if I have to come back here and stay for another year...
But I'm honestly about to hop on a plane and fly somewhere... only currently I barely have enough rent to last until may... so that is NOT going to happen...
*sighs* Too bad my parents hate each other so much... mebbie they would be smart and just pool together money and send me a roundtrip ticket to ANYWHERE for spring break... I'd just stay in scotland the whole time and stay with Robyn if that was the only choice but honestly it doesn't look like I'm going to be able to afford it...
I know I'm ill... and I know its just cuz like.. it seems everyones overseas... or away... or travelling... but I'm so sick of being here and lonely and realizing that I have very few people here for me in rl, most whom don't even know each other, and I'm not even somewhere excellent.
I don't even have enough money to invest in some sort of vehicle to ride.. and if I did I don't know how to drive them... and on TOP of it all I don't even have RIDE to get to the place...
I hate having to rely on others..
I had fun at one of my friends b-day get togethers... only a couple of us... last minute... but at the same time...
I'm sick of hiding at home... sick of being stuck in the US
I SWORE I'd get out of the Texas and try the U.S
Canada's the farthest I've gotten and I can't even do much... I'm alone on those kinda things and for all the world I might as well be a fourty year old spinstress
and it's RIDICULOUS because I REMEMBER travelling I can still tell you what spices are in Stanely Market in Hong Kong or the fish markets of Taiwan or the stink of Bangkok... I can tell you how it felt in Toronto or draw you a map of NYC...
and I'm stuck in central Texas too broke to even afford a cheap scooter to get four blocks...
Yeah I'm whining, yeah people are gonna say at least i've seen it...
but let me tell you one thing...
An animal born and raised in captivity may pine for the wild and want to get past the bars... however its the bird that was raised and let out in the wild and then caged that dies in captivity...
Human's run the same way...
No I will not jump off on a bridge... but right now I'm ready to fall off a brink and for me that could mean doing anything frmo buying a plane ticket to somewhere to buying a 2000 dollar moped... which is more expensive then a used car...
only i have no M license...
*pulls out hair*
And to top it all off?
Nobody even OFFERS a decent THEATRE study abroad program... there is ONE that has an anthro class I could take but nothing that offers a real THEATRE course... GAHHHHHHHHHH not during the summer at least
But I'm honestly about to hop on a plane and fly somewhere... only currently I barely have enough rent to last until may... so that is NOT going to happen...
*sighs* Too bad my parents hate each other so much... mebbie they would be smart and just pool together money and send me a roundtrip ticket to ANYWHERE for spring break... I'd just stay in scotland the whole time and stay with Robyn if that was the only choice but honestly it doesn't look like I'm going to be able to afford it...
I know I'm ill... and I know its just cuz like.. it seems everyones overseas... or away... or travelling... but I'm so sick of being here and lonely and realizing that I have very few people here for me in rl, most whom don't even know each other, and I'm not even somewhere excellent.
I don't even have enough money to invest in some sort of vehicle to ride.. and if I did I don't know how to drive them... and on TOP of it all I don't even have RIDE to get to the place...
I hate having to rely on others..
I had fun at one of my friends b-day get togethers... only a couple of us... last minute... but at the same time...
I'm sick of hiding at home... sick of being stuck in the US
I SWORE I'd get out of the Texas and try the U.S
Canada's the farthest I've gotten and I can't even do much... I'm alone on those kinda things and for all the world I might as well be a fourty year old spinstress
and it's RIDICULOUS because I REMEMBER travelling I can still tell you what spices are in Stanely Market in Hong Kong or the fish markets of Taiwan or the stink of Bangkok... I can tell you how it felt in Toronto or draw you a map of NYC...
and I'm stuck in central Texas too broke to even afford a cheap scooter to get four blocks...
Yeah I'm whining, yeah people are gonna say at least i've seen it...
but let me tell you one thing...
An animal born and raised in captivity may pine for the wild and want to get past the bars... however its the bird that was raised and let out in the wild and then caged that dies in captivity...
Human's run the same way...
No I will not jump off on a bridge... but right now I'm ready to fall off a brink and for me that could mean doing anything frmo buying a plane ticket to somewhere to buying a 2000 dollar moped... which is more expensive then a used car...
only i have no M license...
*pulls out hair*
And to top it all off?
Nobody even OFFERS a decent THEATRE study abroad program... there is ONE that has an anthro class I could take but nothing that offers a real THEATRE course... GAHHHHHHHHHH not during the summer at least