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so i hate people who talk so much crap about people
and then decide to be like oh i didnt. bullll shit.
oh well. im tired of people. and them being stupid
and mean to my friends. keep it to your fucking self.
no one fucking cares idiots. uhhhhhhhhhh & for another
thing, im VERY VERY annoyed with my fucking brother
& all his fucking friends. honestly why cant i just
get along with them? am i less mature then all his
friends that are like a year younger then me? honestly
we used to get along, wtf happened. my dad got a job
underthe table with my uncle. sweeping up snow & stuff
out of the houses. 10$ an hour, not even close to what
he was making but hey it works. then he might get this
other thing i can help him with around here. which is
saweet since ill get some money. tomorrow im going to
the sro show at skateland with tory. caitlin and morgan
and sarah are going and it should be a lot of fun. i
havnt been to one in so long, its about time. josh is
going and i havnt talked to that boy in gosh, almost a year.
well not talked but seen. i cant wait. im still have
a very low self esteem but iv gotten a lot of prettys&cutes
lately from random guys off myspace lmao if that counts for
anything but hey whatever. its been helping my confidence
a little bit im still so insecure about my weight. blah
what else is new. at least i didnt look like i did in eigth
grade. tomorrow im going shopping for jeans for christmas
so hopefully i can be suprised by the size. haha. anyways
i hate when my friends get called ugly=[ or stuff to that
effect. i feel so bad. honestly i dont think any of my friends
are horrible looking at all. so why does everyone else seem
to think it? last night i watched the notebook and cried
my eyes out for like 15 minutes at the end. i didnt remember
the end very well cause the last time i watched it was in like
april. gosh it felt good to cry. i still miss my aunt like crazy.
i went to their house last weekend and in her room, gosh i cant
take it=[ i was supposed to go to toledo with shayla teresa
and my uncle done tonight but the roads were probably bad
down there and i knew teresa would be distracted with shayla
so i didnt wanna risk a accident or anything. and with me not
there its a lot less chaos. we went to see polar express in
3D last weekend. it was me shayla teresa my uncle don, linda
her fiance scott and william. gosh william is so immature
for his age. hes 22 and acts 15. the movie was okay.
probably because i got to stare at this pretty boy the
whole time that sat a couple seats away infront of me.
lately iv been talking to bill a lot, hes a nice kid.
i havnt talked to tommy in ages and honestly thats okay
he was uhm lets say a little tooo shy for me. he needs
to learn to open up more, not that i should be saying anything
since i dont talk much either, but hey i say more then he does.
but at least iv pretty much gotten past liking him. so its all
good in the hood. sorry if iv been bitchy to any of my friends
who have read this. im sorry i just havnt been doing good
the last couple of weeks cause of a lot of stuff happening.
anyways. thats about all for now. maybe another update around
christmas! since its like in a week from sunday=]=]
and then decide to be like oh i didnt. bullll shit.
oh well. im tired of people. and them being stupid
and mean to my friends. keep it to your fucking self.
no one fucking cares idiots. uhhhhhhhhhh & for another
thing, im VERY VERY annoyed with my fucking brother
& all his fucking friends. honestly why cant i just
get along with them? am i less mature then all his
friends that are like a year younger then me? honestly
we used to get along, wtf happened. my dad got a job
underthe table with my uncle. sweeping up snow & stuff
out of the houses. 10$ an hour, not even close to what
he was making but hey it works. then he might get this
other thing i can help him with around here. which is
saweet since ill get some money. tomorrow im going to
the sro show at skateland with tory. caitlin and morgan
and sarah are going and it should be a lot of fun. i
havnt been to one in so long, its about time. josh is
going and i havnt talked to that boy in gosh, almost a year.
well not talked but seen. i cant wait. im still have
a very low self esteem but iv gotten a lot of prettys&cutes
lately from random guys off myspace lmao if that counts for
anything but hey whatever. its been helping my confidence
a little bit im still so insecure about my weight. blah
what else is new. at least i didnt look like i did in eigth
grade. tomorrow im going shopping for jeans for christmas
so hopefully i can be suprised by the size. haha. anyways
i hate when my friends get called ugly=[ or stuff to that
effect. i feel so bad. honestly i dont think any of my friends
are horrible looking at all. so why does everyone else seem
to think it? last night i watched the notebook and cried
my eyes out for like 15 minutes at the end. i didnt remember
the end very well cause the last time i watched it was in like
april. gosh it felt good to cry. i still miss my aunt like crazy.
i went to their house last weekend and in her room, gosh i cant
take it=[ i was supposed to go to toledo with shayla teresa
and my uncle done tonight but the roads were probably bad
down there and i knew teresa would be distracted with shayla
so i didnt wanna risk a accident or anything. and with me not
there its a lot less chaos. we went to see polar express in
3D last weekend. it was me shayla teresa my uncle don, linda
her fiance scott and william. gosh william is so immature
for his age. hes 22 and acts 15. the movie was okay.
probably because i got to stare at this pretty boy the
whole time that sat a couple seats away infront of me.
lately iv been talking to bill a lot, hes a nice kid.
i havnt talked to tommy in ages and honestly thats okay
he was uhm lets say a little tooo shy for me. he needs
to learn to open up more, not that i should be saying anything
since i dont talk much either, but hey i say more then he does.
but at least iv pretty much gotten past liking him. so its all
good in the hood. sorry if iv been bitchy to any of my friends
who have read this. im sorry i just havnt been doing good
the last couple of weeks cause of a lot of stuff happening.
anyways. thats about all for now. maybe another update around
christmas! since its like in a week from sunday=]=]