wahoo...well sorta
So I got to see Doug tonight. I love that kid. He and I were so incredibly close my sophomore year when he dated that stupid hoe Katie (long story and i hate the bitch so i'm not gunna waste my time talking about her) It was so awesome seeing him again I missed that kid so much. He's just so great i love him to death I really don't ever wanna loose touch with him again!!
On a more angry note I talked to my friend from school Chris earlier and he was heading out to a party and i told him no drinking and driving because i'm strongly strongly STRONGLY against ever since shawn died from doing that. I don't care if it was four beers in the course of 4 hours it's the principle of the thing. I know he's not a light weight but still that fact you're still driving with alcohol in your system. I've already lost someone i care about I can't go through that pain again....ever....
Speaking of Shawn I was at Toria's the other night and her mom told us that they won thier court case against the strip bar that Shawn and Will were at the night they died...they got a quarter of a million dollars out of it. So I'm very happy for them....god i miss him so much. The pain goes away a little bit everyday but it's always there full force when I walk in their front door and he's not there chillin on the couch with a cigarette in one hand and the remote in the other. The pain is always there when I get to see his 4 year old son (little Shawn) and see how he looks just like him in the face and eyes. He has Shawns smile which is the most beautiful smile there is. When I'm scared or alone and I know I could've had him to talk too the pain is there. It'll be three years this January 12th....it seems so much longer than that. I never knew how much I could miss someone nut thinking of how tragic his story is and how easily it couldn't have happened it just hurts so deep. And sometimes I think he's missed out on so many things in our lives. Arlene's wedding, Toria's graduation, Jessica's recitals, break ups and make ups, everything in little shawn's life...but then I remember where he is and I know that he hasnt missed a single thing.
Sorry this was such a downer entry....i think i need sleep. Tomorrow is gunna be a good day!
~Allison~
you won't be there with me
doubles won't be neccessary
i'm missing you are you missing me?
but God made an angel out of you....-pete schmidt
On a more angry note I talked to my friend from school Chris earlier and he was heading out to a party and i told him no drinking and driving because i'm strongly strongly STRONGLY against ever since shawn died from doing that. I don't care if it was four beers in the course of 4 hours it's the principle of the thing. I know he's not a light weight but still that fact you're still driving with alcohol in your system. I've already lost someone i care about I can't go through that pain again....ever....
Speaking of Shawn I was at Toria's the other night and her mom told us that they won thier court case against the strip bar that Shawn and Will were at the night they died...they got a quarter of a million dollars out of it. So I'm very happy for them....god i miss him so much. The pain goes away a little bit everyday but it's always there full force when I walk in their front door and he's not there chillin on the couch with a cigarette in one hand and the remote in the other. The pain is always there when I get to see his 4 year old son (little Shawn) and see how he looks just like him in the face and eyes. He has Shawns smile which is the most beautiful smile there is. When I'm scared or alone and I know I could've had him to talk too the pain is there. It'll be three years this January 12th....it seems so much longer than that. I never knew how much I could miss someone nut thinking of how tragic his story is and how easily it couldn't have happened it just hurts so deep. And sometimes I think he's missed out on so many things in our lives. Arlene's wedding, Toria's graduation, Jessica's recitals, break ups and make ups, everything in little shawn's life...but then I remember where he is and I know that he hasnt missed a single thing.
Sorry this was such a downer entry....i think i need sleep. Tomorrow is gunna be a good day!
~Allison~
you won't be there with me
doubles won't be neccessary
i'm missing you are you missing me?
but God made an angel out of you....-pete schmidt