weird....
I hate these moods. I'm just not feelin it you know...I just feel incredibly alone I hate it so much. I need someone to talk to but Shawn isn't available...he's got too much going on. It seems like he's never there anymore. It kinda sucks...maybe that's what my dream was about. Not losing him but just how he's not around anymore. I guess that's what pisses me off so much. A lot of things are pissing me off. I'm just so...i don't know. I really want to hurt myself right now...I really wish i could just take out my scissors and go. But my parents would kill me and I would be in so much trouble. fuck....i hate myself becuase of all these feelings...I hate myself for it so much...i need maggie or shawn or someone...anyone I can talk to but there's no one....maybe a nice hot bath will make me feel better...i dunno. later
~Allison~
and you don't want to be here in the future,
so you say the present's just a pleasent
interuption to the past.
and you don't want to look much closer,
cuz you're afriad to find out all this hope
you had sent into the sky had crashed...
~Allison~
and you don't want to be here in the future,
so you say the present's just a pleasent
interuption to the past.
and you don't want to look much closer,
cuz you're afriad to find out all this hope
you had sent into the sky had crashed...