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Today was bad. I felt like crying all day and it really sucked. Fred, is driving to San Diego on thursday to go to his grandma's funeral. My mom said that he wants us to go but she doesnt want to go bc she would feel uncomfotable. This upsetted me. Bc WE used to live there, its not like we dont know a fucking person there. But, Fred would be driving non-stop meaning 48 Hours in a car without stopping to get a hotel, which doesnt bother me. The thing that bothers me is the fact that hes only gonna be there for a day. SO i dont think that much time in a car is worth it. But anyway, my mother proceeded to list all the negatives to this situation. Which wasn't a good idea bc by the time i got out of the car to walk into school i had tears in my eye's. Between this and the whole thing with my dad, it made me really upset. At school, i didnt feel like dealing with anybody so i kinda sat by myself in the auditorium situation. People were looking at me like a was a total idiot for sitting by myself which i could give a shit less bc i was upset, but this one chick who was hanging out with my friends, kept wispering and pointing to me, which made me even more pissed. But after we got out of the auditorium, i was talking to my friends and she kept coming up and was like asking what i said all snobby and rude and i sware if she does that tommorow i will beat the living shit out of her. I dont know her, she doesnt know me show she needs to keep her snobby ass looks to herslef. But anyway today just sucked...and i hope tomorrow is better.