I finally found it. I was laying in bed one morning when my alarm clock went off. I laid there for a few minutes and a song came on that I really liked. The lyrics, the vocals, the emotion, the song. I was listening to "The Mix" radio station which doesn't say the artist or song title after each song, so I had no idea what it was called. I emailed the radio station twice to try and figure out what it was called. I described it and about what time it played and they had no idea what it was. But, I heard it on the radio on "My 99.5" (where they say the title and artist after every song) and I was so excited. Then today, I found it on YouTube. It just fits with how I feel and have felt.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qF1wZQzpeKA "The Kill"
-30 Seconds To Mars
What if I wanted to break
Laugh it all off in your face
What would you do? (Oh, oh)
What if I fell to the floor
Couldn't take all this anymore
What would you do, do, do?
Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
What if I wanted to fight
Beg for the rest of my life
What would you do?
You say you wanted more
What are you waiting for?
I'm not running from you (from you)
Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you
I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now, this is who I really am inside.
Finally found myself
Fighting for a chance.
I know now, this is who I really am.
Ah, ah
Oh, oh
Ah, ah
Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you, you, you.
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you
Come break me down (bury me, bury me)
Break me down (bury me, bury me)
Break me down (bury me, bury me)
(You say you wanted more)
What if I wanted to break...?
(What are you waiting for?)
Bury me, bury me
(I'm not running from you)
What if I
What if I
What if I
What if I
Bury me, bury me