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well....my day was good then it got kina shitty.
i went out to eat wit my Boo and her mum. then we walked around downtown Portsmouth for a lil bit. went to work. my Boo showed up around 9:15ish wit Evan. that was kewl.
Evan got his license (hopefully he can keep it now lmfao)and he drove me home. oh now that was fun. my girl seriously like crushed the bones in my fingers. Evan isnt really the best driver.
anyways now for the shitty part.
i stumbled upon one of my friends journals (which is friends only) from my other school. i was really happy i found it. i was tryin to find her sn so i IM'd sumone on her friends list and shit. i aslo commneted in her journal to see if she'd add me. i kina got mad when i saw that she commented to sumone else who commented after i did. so i commented again. this time she wrote back. i wont tell u exactly wut she said (nuthin mean) but she said she wouldnt add me cuz she knows me personally and she doesnt add anyone that she knows personally. so that sux. she said she'd IM me sumtime soon or sum shit. thats kewl. then she said that i was stalkin her and got mad cuz i IM'd one of her friends to find info on her. she doesnt like people stalkin her. oops my fuckin bad. i wasnt fuckin stalkin her.
anyways. i wrote back to her again. and i wasnt very happy. i kina basicaly told her to fuck off (not in those exact words) and told her not to bother IM'ing me. i dont wanna talk to her anymore. now i feel horrible. i was so fuckin happy that i found her journal and shit and i had really wanted to talk to her. i hadnt talked/seen her for about 7 months and she was like a best friend before i moved. but she sounded like a bitch or sumthin. and im like whoa uve fuckin changed or sum shit. i dont think she realized how much she meant to me and stuff. and if it wasnt for her i dunno if id be here (livin). she helped me through alot. and i jus told her not to IM me.
do u think wut i said was wrong? i mean...now i feel bad. wutever. fuck it. i dont want to talk to her. but i also kina hope she does IM me. but after wut i said she probaly wont. i took her off my friends list. *sigh* fuck dis shit. i could fuckin care less. ahhhh..wtf..part of me is mad at her and the other part isnt. grr....
I LOVE YOU MIRANDA