this started as a way to describe my mental state
I wake up every morning, and the prevailing thought in my head is how much I don't want to exist on this planet anymore. I feel increasingly tired of culture and society and I feel like everything is a waste because everything we do is so pointless and repetitive and NOBODY NOTICES. How hard is it for people to realize that we're stuck in a huge ditch and all we're doing is digging deeper and deeper until we're all sucked down the hole and nothing's gonna be left except the broken and shattered remains of Western civilization and then we're all dead. There's nothing left and the planet's so disgusting that nobody can even live on it and then what? There's no more human race, no more fighting, no more idiocy, no more repetition, no more anything, and I, for one, want to welcome the end of the world with open arms because there is nothing left for me except for the relationships I have. And the relationships only matter because they're the only things preventing me from withdrawing completely and never leaving my room again until the day I die.
It is painfully difficult for me to trust someone. I can count the people I genuinely trust on one hand. If you can't see that the world is a terrible place, then I cannot trust you. If you can't see that World War III is around the corner thanks to the idiocy of the boys' club that rules us, then why should I even speak to you if you don't pay enough attention to notice? I may sound elitist, but it's better than never saying a single word because everyone around you thinks you're just another stupid twenty year old with a big mouth. That's why I have the few friends I do, because they're the only ones who understand that we're lost. Everyone else just thinks we're dumb kids. Nope, we're not dumb. Just lost. Our entire generation is lost. If you haven't noticed, then just go back to fucking sleep.
I don't know if I'm normal or crazy, but I'd honestly rather be crazy if the only way to be "normal" is to sit and watch fucking reality TV and read the tabloids like gospel and listen to the radio and love reggaeton because it's so hip and trendy and let's not forget all the bros and the scene kids and the high school girls who aren't even in high school anymore and yet they refuse to GROW THE FUCK UP.
In conclusion, I hate everything.
It is painfully difficult for me to trust someone. I can count the people I genuinely trust on one hand. If you can't see that the world is a terrible place, then I cannot trust you. If you can't see that World War III is around the corner thanks to the idiocy of the boys' club that rules us, then why should I even speak to you if you don't pay enough attention to notice? I may sound elitist, but it's better than never saying a single word because everyone around you thinks you're just another stupid twenty year old with a big mouth. That's why I have the few friends I do, because they're the only ones who understand that we're lost. Everyone else just thinks we're dumb kids. Nope, we're not dumb. Just lost. Our entire generation is lost. If you haven't noticed, then just go back to fucking sleep.
I don't know if I'm normal or crazy, but I'd honestly rather be crazy if the only way to be "normal" is to sit and watch fucking reality TV and read the tabloids like gospel and listen to the radio and love reggaeton because it's so hip and trendy and let's not forget all the bros and the scene kids and the high school girls who aren't even in high school anymore and yet they refuse to GROW THE FUCK UP.
In conclusion, I hate everything.