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I knew it would end up this way. Yet I was compelled to toss my beliefs and convictions out the window.
I feel so foolish now, knowing I could have resisted. I definately could have resisted. The reason I gave in is a unknown to me.
I do truly blame myself for the end of it. Not quite for causing the problems he so hated, but more for not being true to myself. For compromising my happiness and hoping it would add to his.
It shall never happen again. I won't ever allow it.
I feel so foolish now, knowing I could have resisted. I definately could have resisted. The reason I gave in is a unknown to me.
I do truly blame myself for the end of it. Not quite for causing the problems he so hated, but more for not being true to myself. For compromising my happiness and hoping it would add to his.
It shall never happen again. I won't ever allow it.