ahh
today i realized what might be the reason why i have trouble in sentimental moments with others
why my mom thinks i hate everyone
why ive had trouble with boysfriends
i have trouble showing affection
[gasp*]
i mean i could sit here and write to everyone i care about and write how i truly feel about them, and it would be beautiful and mushy
but face to face it wouldnt be the same
i have just now realized this, after years of awkwardness
i dont knwo why either, because contrary to what some may think, if you know me then you know that i really and truly care about a lot of people
a lot more than even they may know
i just have trouble showing it
which probably has on some level with some people/situations to do with self esteem and such
ahhhjkfashgjkahsgsa
h
ugh.
now what to do...
why my mom thinks i hate everyone
why ive had trouble with boysfriends
i have trouble showing affection
[gasp*]
i mean i could sit here and write to everyone i care about and write how i truly feel about them, and it would be beautiful and mushy
but face to face it wouldnt be the same
i have just now realized this, after years of awkwardness
i dont knwo why either, because contrary to what some may think, if you know me then you know that i really and truly care about a lot of people
a lot more than even they may know
i just have trouble showing it
which probably has on some level with some people/situations to do with self esteem and such
ahhhjkfashgjkahsgsa
h
ugh.
now what to do...