*Home Sweet Home
So this will be a long entry because I haven't updated in awhile
So let's go back to last week.. On Wednesday after my Japanese Religion final, I went to the Rec and ran a mile and then biked easy for 10 minutes, then ran another mile and biked easy for 10 minutes and then attempted to do some weights...and then later that day I start coughing..I'm like well it's probably from my asthma from working out.. and I continue on..and then Thursday I wake up and my throat is a little constricted and I'm still coughing and I'm like hmm if it were from asthma it would have gone away by now ..and I coughed alot ..and was out of breath easier and couldn't like hum that sai chorale thing...at senior commitment..and then Friday comes along and now my voice/throat is in even worse condition and when I walked outside it burned in my chest and my chin hurt soo bad and I was coughing alot..and my voice was half-way gone..after math I had lunch with Kyle and then hung out with Kyle all day and even though my throat hurt and my voice was half way gone ..I sang with him to the entire RENT soundtrack ..that was probably a mistake lol ...and we did something else too..I can't remember.. and then we made the painful walk (for me at least) to dinner and the food helped the burning in my chest and throat ..and temporarily relieved my throat from pain and I temporarily had 3/4 of my voice back ..Then I took Kyle, Hillary, and Jeremy to the Parlour (its an ice cream place) and once again I got my voice back after eating ice cream but that was short lived..then after we got back I hung out more with Kyle and we watched DIsc 1 of Season 1 of Smallville, which I had never seen and my condition was worsening..I was coughing more and it burned in my chest/throat..and I was sick and Kyle offered to walk me back to my dorm ..so I said yes and he did which was very nice.. and then it burned of course really bad by the time i walked back and went up four flights of stairs...and then I went to bed ..and the next morning was awful..I didn't wake up until 11ish and it hurt soo bad and my voice was completely gone and I felt feverish ..So I decided to go have a lil breakfast and maybe it will feel better..I got some scrambled eggs and a donut ..and I sat down and called Toby ..I was crying because I was soo miserable and it hurt really bad..and then I went straight back to my dorm and took a lil nap becuase I was soo tired still from the sickness ..and then when I woke up around 12 30 or 1ish ..I called Kyle to see if he could take me to Sindecuse ..I sounded like I was crying miserably and dying becuas ei had no voice and that's what Kyle thought ..but I wasn't crying lol ..I could have ..and then he drove me to sindecuse ..to find out that they were closed ..and then I also felt feverish and he took me back to his dorm because he had a themoneter and Tylenol..I didn't have fever and I took some of his Tylenol and he gave me some of his water bottles...and then he drove me back to my dorm and walked me up the stairs ..and then I went back to sleep ..and slept until 5ish and decided to go eat ..since Kyle and Hillary and Jeremy would be there...and I felt soo miserable and tired and I was coughing...everyone thought I looked like I was on drugs ...i asked Kyle if he could take me to wllgreenes afterwards and he did and I got Cough Syrup , Sudafed, Thera Flu, and some cough drops...I felt awful...then Sunday comes around still feel awful and I ate breakfast and made it back and slept the entire day...with bouts of bad coughing ..I went to dinner..and I still looked like I was on drugs ...I think it was that night I had Hillary drive me to meijers to get some popsicles ..because when I had bronchitis it helped with the coughing a lil and felt good on my throat ..then Monday rolled around and I went to Sindecuse..and they didnt do a good job...The lady didn't check me out that well and only perscribed me for Motrin 800 which is a Painkiller not anything for my coughing or sickness...and I was feeling slightly better..there wasnt any burning in my chest and I also had a cold along with the coughing ..and my voice was slightly betterand then I was up till 5:30am coughing...and I talked to my dad on Tuesday and he was like you should go back and get some antibiotics or something because motrin 800 is just for pain and tell them that you've had Bronchitis 2 times before...cause it was sounding like I had bronchitis...and I went back and I had alot better doctors than before and turns out I have a viral infection in my chest..so nothing will cure it ..and they gave me Tessalon ..which does wonders for coughing..and yea ..and that brings me to the point where i am now ..My cough has gotten a lil better but i still am coughing and I still have the cold ..And I got lucky that I only had 1 final during finals week and I had taken 2 finlas the week before ...I really do thank Hillary and Kyle alot for taking care of me and taking me places..Thanks a bunches guys! it meant alot!
sigh Finals week is a baaaaad weeek to get sick lol ..so i got luckly ...and I think I did awesome on my calc final on wednesday and I'll be getting a B yay!!!!! and if I got the a in engineering graphics my gpa will be a 3.68 yay!!!...and then later that morning on wednesday My dad ..and Kyle and me started packing and re-lofting my bed and moving me out .and then lunch and then Kyle went back to his room and my dad and I finished up and then loaded the car and came back home
And then Thursday I unpacked more and then saw my Toby baby!!!! and I'm home for summer so I can see him like almost everyday again yay!!!!! I love him alot ..and when I'm away at WMU, it's really hard to remember how happy I felt when I was with him..and how much I really did love him ..and I kept having these thoughts that I was unhappy ..and maybe I was falling out of love ..but I was stupid ..it just takes one hug and seeing Toby when I rememeber it all and I love him and I feel bad that I was even thinking those bad thoughts that were confusing me ..sigh seriously people slap me when I start saying stuff like that...And I saw Toby tonight too!! It's soogood to be home ..and actually have the entire summer of us being together and home all of the summer for the 1st time ..unlike last year lol...I'm excited ..I love Toby! yay..but I miss Kyle, Hillary, and Jeremy!..I hope to see them at least once over the summer!
On the other hand ..I've been having these thoguhts of death and they scare me likeno other adn I want them to stop ..I dont want to think about death or dying or the end ..and please stop talking about globalb warming it scares me ..and ahhh sometimes I wish i wasn't born so I wouldnt have to deal with death or the end or yeah ..it's upsetting me and I haven't talked to anyone about it ..please help me ...It scares me and makes me paranoid and its horrible ..I want these thoughts to end ..yea i hate them and yea ..okay back to thinking happy thoughts yay! ..Toby ..happy ..okay Im done!
So let's go back to last week.. On Wednesday after my Japanese Religion final, I went to the Rec and ran a mile and then biked easy for 10 minutes, then ran another mile and biked easy for 10 minutes and then attempted to do some weights...and then later that day I start coughing..I'm like well it's probably from my asthma from working out.. and I continue on..and then Thursday I wake up and my throat is a little constricted and I'm still coughing and I'm like hmm if it were from asthma it would have gone away by now ..and I coughed alot ..and was out of breath easier and couldn't like hum that sai chorale thing...at senior commitment..and then Friday comes along and now my voice/throat is in even worse condition and when I walked outside it burned in my chest and my chin hurt soo bad and I was coughing alot..and my voice was half-way gone..after math I had lunch with Kyle and then hung out with Kyle all day and even though my throat hurt and my voice was half way gone ..I sang with him to the entire RENT soundtrack ..that was probably a mistake lol ...and we did something else too..I can't remember.. and then we made the painful walk (for me at least) to dinner and the food helped the burning in my chest and throat ..and temporarily relieved my throat from pain and I temporarily had 3/4 of my voice back ..Then I took Kyle, Hillary, and Jeremy to the Parlour (its an ice cream place) and once again I got my voice back after eating ice cream but that was short lived..then after we got back I hung out more with Kyle and we watched DIsc 1 of Season 1 of Smallville, which I had never seen and my condition was worsening..I was coughing more and it burned in my chest/throat..and I was sick and Kyle offered to walk me back to my dorm ..so I said yes and he did which was very nice.. and then it burned of course really bad by the time i walked back and went up four flights of stairs...and then I went to bed ..and the next morning was awful..I didn't wake up until 11ish and it hurt soo bad and my voice was completely gone and I felt feverish ..So I decided to go have a lil breakfast and maybe it will feel better..I got some scrambled eggs and a donut ..and I sat down and called Toby ..I was crying because I was soo miserable and it hurt really bad..and then I went straight back to my dorm and took a lil nap becuase I was soo tired still from the sickness ..and then when I woke up around 12 30 or 1ish ..I called Kyle to see if he could take me to Sindecuse ..I sounded like I was crying miserably and dying becuas ei had no voice and that's what Kyle thought ..but I wasn't crying lol ..I could have ..and then he drove me to sindecuse ..to find out that they were closed ..and then I also felt feverish and he took me back to his dorm because he had a themoneter and Tylenol..I didn't have fever and I took some of his Tylenol and he gave me some of his water bottles...and then he drove me back to my dorm and walked me up the stairs ..and then I went back to sleep ..and slept until 5ish and decided to go eat ..since Kyle and Hillary and Jeremy would be there...and I felt soo miserable and tired and I was coughing...everyone thought I looked like I was on drugs ...i asked Kyle if he could take me to wllgreenes afterwards and he did and I got Cough Syrup , Sudafed, Thera Flu, and some cough drops...I felt awful...then Sunday comes around still feel awful and I ate breakfast and made it back and slept the entire day...with bouts of bad coughing ..I went to dinner..and I still looked like I was on drugs ...I think it was that night I had Hillary drive me to meijers to get some popsicles ..because when I had bronchitis it helped with the coughing a lil and felt good on my throat ..then Monday rolled around and I went to Sindecuse..and they didnt do a good job...The lady didn't check me out that well and only perscribed me for Motrin 800 which is a Painkiller not anything for my coughing or sickness...and I was feeling slightly better..there wasnt any burning in my chest and I also had a cold along with the coughing ..and my voice was slightly betterand then I was up till 5:30am coughing...and I talked to my dad on Tuesday and he was like you should go back and get some antibiotics or something because motrin 800 is just for pain and tell them that you've had Bronchitis 2 times before...cause it was sounding like I had bronchitis...and I went back and I had alot better doctors than before and turns out I have a viral infection in my chest..so nothing will cure it ..and they gave me Tessalon ..which does wonders for coughing..and yea ..and that brings me to the point where i am now ..My cough has gotten a lil better but i still am coughing and I still have the cold ..And I got lucky that I only had 1 final during finals week and I had taken 2 finlas the week before ...I really do thank Hillary and Kyle alot for taking care of me and taking me places..Thanks a bunches guys! it meant alot!
sigh Finals week is a baaaaad weeek to get sick lol ..so i got luckly ...and I think I did awesome on my calc final on wednesday and I'll be getting a B yay!!!!! and if I got the a in engineering graphics my gpa will be a 3.68 yay!!!...and then later that morning on wednesday My dad ..and Kyle and me started packing and re-lofting my bed and moving me out .and then lunch and then Kyle went back to his room and my dad and I finished up and then loaded the car and came back home
And then Thursday I unpacked more and then saw my Toby baby!!!! and I'm home for summer so I can see him like almost everyday again yay!!!!! I love him alot ..and when I'm away at WMU, it's really hard to remember how happy I felt when I was with him..and how much I really did love him ..and I kept having these thoughts that I was unhappy ..and maybe I was falling out of love ..but I was stupid ..it just takes one hug and seeing Toby when I rememeber it all and I love him and I feel bad that I was even thinking those bad thoughts that were confusing me ..sigh seriously people slap me when I start saying stuff like that...And I saw Toby tonight too!! It's soogood to be home ..and actually have the entire summer of us being together and home all of the summer for the 1st time ..unlike last year lol...I'm excited ..I love Toby! yay..but I miss Kyle, Hillary, and Jeremy!..I hope to see them at least once over the summer!
On the other hand ..I've been having these thoguhts of death and they scare me likeno other adn I want them to stop ..I dont want to think about death or dying or the end ..and please stop talking about globalb warming it scares me ..and ahhh sometimes I wish i wasn't born so I wouldnt have to deal with death or the end or yeah ..it's upsetting me and I haven't talked to anyone about it ..please help me ...It scares me and makes me paranoid and its horrible ..I want these thoughts to end ..yea i hate them and yea ..okay back to thinking happy thoughts yay! ..Toby ..happy ..okay Im done!